Things I’ve learned over the past week:
1. When someone tells you their door is open and to feel free to come in and talk about anything that might be bothering you – it’s a bunch of BS. If you happen to go in and feel comfortable to say what’s on your mind about things you’ve seen happening in the office, and th eperson might even agree with you at the time. They will turn on you and go to HR and their boss; who in turn goes to the big department boss.
2. Your simple use of one word – favoritism – will get you called into the Big Boss office on Christmas Eve and reprimanded for even thinking that way and for having it go to HR – which by the way you did not do; it was that open door manager that went to HR.
3. It is OK for upper management to practice favoritism – and just because it upsets some people it won’t get changed – they are not upsetting the apple cart just because the practice isn’t fair.
4. The policy during Flu Season is that if you’re sick do not come into work – but only if you’re on the list of favorites. If you’re not on that list you are not able to work from home, you are required to come into the office, and you get to spend most of the day listening to people say you better not get them sick, you should have gotten the flu shot, and if you get them sick you will be covering for them because of course they will be staying home during Year End Close.
5. If you do come into work you had better have a smile on your face, otherwise people will see your crabbiness as having an “attitude”. Which I have learned is not allowed.
Basically I have learned over this past week that no matter what people say or do keep your mouth shut. If you are not feeling good you better slap a smile on your face or you will be seen as someone with an attitude problem. Even people who you think you get along with may be talking to others behind your back and you won’t know until you’re told it’s nice to see you getting along with that person now. WTF?!?!
Happy New Year :P
D
Monday, December 31, 2012
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Dictator L
If there are any countries that are missing a Dictator I know where she is . . . . . . She's living in my house!!
L has become quite the bossy person these days. Not sure if its the pregnancy hormones, the fact we've been in the same house together for 7 months, or a combination of the two. Every day she tells me what to do and nags me if I haven't done something she told me to do. If I say something to her about it she gets very pissy and says she's not being like that and I am just imagining it.
If I turn the tables and say something to her about things she needs to be doing all Hell breaks lose and she just gets angry - it's like having to walk on egg shells all the time.
I think I'm going to lose my mind before the baby gets here.
D
L has become quite the bossy person these days. Not sure if its the pregnancy hormones, the fact we've been in the same house together for 7 months, or a combination of the two. Every day she tells me what to do and nags me if I haven't done something she told me to do. If I say something to her about it she gets very pissy and says she's not being like that and I am just imagining it.
If I turn the tables and say something to her about things she needs to be doing all Hell breaks lose and she just gets angry - it's like having to walk on egg shells all the time.
I think I'm going to lose my mind before the baby gets here.
D
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Flexible
flex•i•ble [flek-suh-buhl] adjective
1. capable of being bent, usually without breaking; easily bent: a flexible ruler.
2. susceptible of modification or adaptation; adaptable: a flexible schedule.
3. willing or disposed to yield; pliable: a flexible personality.
Let’s discuss definition number 2. My understanding of this is – you can set a schedule within certain parameters – come in whenever you want as long as you are here by 10 and get your work done. Basically in by 10 and work your 8 hours or more if needed to get the job done.
My schedule the previous months was pretty much 9:30 – 5:30/6:00 depending on whether I took a lunch break or not – which I usually don’t. I would get “suggestions” around close that maybe I could get in earlier to help others out with close. Well – I started doing that and remembered why I used to come in early – it’s quiet in the office, I can get more done in the morning, and I can head home earlier and have some time in the evening to do stuff before bedtime. So I have started getting into the office between 7:00 – 7:30 – I’m still not taking lunch breaks so I have been leaving at 3:30/4:00 – getting my 8 hours in and getting my work done. Now I feel like I am getting “suggestions” that 3:30/4:00 is awfully early to be leaving. There are other people in the office who have worked this early schedule and there has never been a problem.
So – back to the definition of flexible. I think we need to add one more description:
4. Modification of schedule as long as you are in the office from 8:00 – 5:00.
De
1. capable of being bent, usually without breaking; easily bent: a flexible ruler.
2. susceptible of modification or adaptation; adaptable: a flexible schedule.
3. willing or disposed to yield; pliable: a flexible personality.
Let’s discuss definition number 2. My understanding of this is – you can set a schedule within certain parameters – come in whenever you want as long as you are here by 10 and get your work done. Basically in by 10 and work your 8 hours or more if needed to get the job done.
My schedule the previous months was pretty much 9:30 – 5:30/6:00 depending on whether I took a lunch break or not – which I usually don’t. I would get “suggestions” around close that maybe I could get in earlier to help others out with close. Well – I started doing that and remembered why I used to come in early – it’s quiet in the office, I can get more done in the morning, and I can head home earlier and have some time in the evening to do stuff before bedtime. So I have started getting into the office between 7:00 – 7:30 – I’m still not taking lunch breaks so I have been leaving at 3:30/4:00 – getting my 8 hours in and getting my work done. Now I feel like I am getting “suggestions” that 3:30/4:00 is awfully early to be leaving. There are other people in the office who have worked this early schedule and there has never been a problem.
So – back to the definition of flexible. I think we need to add one more description:
4. Modification of schedule as long as you are in the office from 8:00 – 5:00.
De
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Twilight Saga
I went to the Twilight Saga Marathon – all 5 movies in one day – it was so much fun and the new movie was AMAZING!!
I thought there would be more people at the marathon than there was – the theater was only about 1/3 full. Maybe because it was on a Thursday (school day) not many kids could go. This was fine by me – we got good seats and were able to have no one sitting right next to us. It was like our own little community – everyone that was there was a diehard Twilight Fan – so no one made fun of my Forks High School sweatshirt with the name Cullen on the back!
There was intermission between the movies so you could stretch, go to the bathroom, refill your soda and popcorn. At the beginning of each movie they had a filmed segment with the actors that played Rosalie, Jasper, and Esme talking about their experiences filming the movie that was coming up. Interesting facts from Jasper – in New Moon he was wearing a wig which he referred to as the dead cat on his head. For Eclipse he had to go to horse training, even though he knew how to ride, for insurance purposes. He would spend his training time riding the horse on trails.
The final movie was very good – it was the perfect ending to the whole saga. There was a twist –and I won’t say what it was or when it is in the movie – I will just say that everyone that was in the theater was surprised and it made the whole movie very cool.
The whole weekend I felt like I had a Twilight Hangover – I am very addicted to the movies and the whole story – to go from everything Twilight to no Twilight and knowing it was over was tough. A good way to explain it is: Inability to start a new book/movie because you’re still living in the last book’s/movies world.
De
I thought there would be more people at the marathon than there was – the theater was only about 1/3 full. Maybe because it was on a Thursday (school day) not many kids could go. This was fine by me – we got good seats and were able to have no one sitting right next to us. It was like our own little community – everyone that was there was a diehard Twilight Fan – so no one made fun of my Forks High School sweatshirt with the name Cullen on the back!
There was intermission between the movies so you could stretch, go to the bathroom, refill your soda and popcorn. At the beginning of each movie they had a filmed segment with the actors that played Rosalie, Jasper, and Esme talking about their experiences filming the movie that was coming up. Interesting facts from Jasper – in New Moon he was wearing a wig which he referred to as the dead cat on his head. For Eclipse he had to go to horse training, even though he knew how to ride, for insurance purposes. He would spend his training time riding the horse on trails.
The final movie was very good – it was the perfect ending to the whole saga. There was a twist –and I won’t say what it was or when it is in the movie – I will just say that everyone that was in the theater was surprised and it made the whole movie very cool.
The whole weekend I felt like I had a Twilight Hangover – I am very addicted to the movies and the whole story – to go from everything Twilight to no Twilight and knowing it was over was tough. A good way to explain it is: Inability to start a new book/movie because you’re still living in the last book’s/movies world.
De
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Bright and Early
It’s been a week since I decided to try and get into work early and I am proud to say I have made it in every day before 8:00!! I was in today right at 7:00. I got my checks cut and my wires entered before anyone else from my department got into the office. I feel so accomplished.
Had a great weekend – spent Saturday catching up on DVR items and Sunday I drove up to La Connor and took my Dad to see the new James Bond movie for his birthday. The movie, Skyfall, was really good! Lots of action, good storyline, easy to follow. It was a lot of fun. After the movie we picked up Mom and went to the La Connor Brewery for dinner. They make these small hand-tossed pizzas cooked in a brick oven. Very tasty.
I am very excited for tomorrow – Twilight Marathon! Yes – L and I are going to Lincoln Cinemas to watch all of the Twilight Movies culminating in the debut of the final movie in the series. I can hardly wait! The first movie starts at 12:10 pm. I am thinking we will need to get to the theater around 10 – 10:30 to make sure we don’t get stuck sitting in the very front row. If I’m sitting in the movies for 12 hours I want comfortable seats. If we get there and there isn’t a big line – we can just go hang out in the Container Store for awhile.
I will be working from home on Friday – to sleep in a bit and L has a court date in the afternoon. Not sure how this is going to go – she still hasn’t done her alcohol evaluation so we may end up with yet another continuance. She is such a procrastinator – I’ve been known to put off some uncomfortable things but never for this long and not for something this important. I just have to keep reminding myself that she is an adult, this is all on her, and it is not mine to stress about. I have to remember to do that in regards to her medical bills too – she has put off calling places and trying to work out payment plans – and she has also put off getting in touch with DSHS to find out what assistance she can qualify for. Lots of growing to be done by both of us – I need to let go and she needs to start taking care of things on her own. We’ll get there!
De
Had a great weekend – spent Saturday catching up on DVR items and Sunday I drove up to La Connor and took my Dad to see the new James Bond movie for his birthday. The movie, Skyfall, was really good! Lots of action, good storyline, easy to follow. It was a lot of fun. After the movie we picked up Mom and went to the La Connor Brewery for dinner. They make these small hand-tossed pizzas cooked in a brick oven. Very tasty.
I am very excited for tomorrow – Twilight Marathon! Yes – L and I are going to Lincoln Cinemas to watch all of the Twilight Movies culminating in the debut of the final movie in the series. I can hardly wait! The first movie starts at 12:10 pm. I am thinking we will need to get to the theater around 10 – 10:30 to make sure we don’t get stuck sitting in the very front row. If I’m sitting in the movies for 12 hours I want comfortable seats. If we get there and there isn’t a big line – we can just go hang out in the Container Store for awhile.
I will be working from home on Friday – to sleep in a bit and L has a court date in the afternoon. Not sure how this is going to go – she still hasn’t done her alcohol evaluation so we may end up with yet another continuance. She is such a procrastinator – I’ve been known to put off some uncomfortable things but never for this long and not for something this important. I just have to keep reminding myself that she is an adult, this is all on her, and it is not mine to stress about. I have to remember to do that in regards to her medical bills too – she has put off calling places and trying to work out payment plans – and she has also put off getting in touch with DSHS to find out what assistance she can qualify for. Lots of growing to be done by both of us – I need to let go and she needs to start taking care of things on her own. We’ll get there!
De
Friday, November 9, 2012
Here I Am
So it has been a very long time since I wrote on here. There have been some changes in my life – I’ve been tired all the time – stuck in one of my low points. The low points are like a vicious cycle – I get depressed, start to forget my meds, makes me more depressed, makes me forget my meds more . . . see. . . . vicious cycle. I made great efforts this week to remember to take my meds everyday and it’s amazing how much better I feel. I’ve actually been able to get up with my alarm this week and get into work by 7 like I used to – which is great because I then get to leave while it’s still light outside. I had forgotten how much I enjoy getting in to work before everyone else does. Things are looking up.
So – the changes – there were 2 big ones during the summer.
1. L’s Dad moved back to Washington. It was a surprise to both L and I. One night there was a knock on my door and there he was! It took awhile for me to get used to seeing him in my house. But now, it’s not a big deal. He and L see each other on the weekends – they hang at the house sometimes. L is really happy to have him back in her life.
2. Labor Day Weekend we found out the L is pregnant! It was a shock to her as well as everyone else. An even bigger surprise was that she was already 3 months along! A few weeks ago she had an ultrasound and we found out she is having a . . . . . . . girl! I’m going to be a Grandma!
Now that I am feeling better and I seem to have some of my energy back I will probably start writing on here again! I will keep you updated on L and talk about random things – and I may even start posting some baking blogs – Yup, I am even feeling the energy and joy in baking again.
Glad to have me back!!
De
So – the changes – there were 2 big ones during the summer.
1. L’s Dad moved back to Washington. It was a surprise to both L and I. One night there was a knock on my door and there he was! It took awhile for me to get used to seeing him in my house. But now, it’s not a big deal. He and L see each other on the weekends – they hang at the house sometimes. L is really happy to have him back in her life.
2. Labor Day Weekend we found out the L is pregnant! It was a shock to her as well as everyone else. An even bigger surprise was that she was already 3 months along! A few weeks ago she had an ultrasound and we found out she is having a . . . . . . . girl! I’m going to be a Grandma!
Now that I am feeling better and I seem to have some of my energy back I will probably start writing on here again! I will keep you updated on L and talk about random things – and I may even start posting some baking blogs – Yup, I am even feeling the energy and joy in baking again.
Glad to have me back!!
De
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Vacation - Yeah Right
I haven't posted because it's just been crap crap crap in my life lately. Work has been stressful - L was arrested - my finances suck! I took this past Thurs - Tues off to burn some vacation time and to try and relax - should have known that wasn't going to happen. Friday night L had 2 friends come over - ended up staying the night. Nothing like getting up in the morning to beer cans and an empty fifth of rum all over my living room not to mention the pile of cigarette butts all over my deck!! Plus 3 people passed out on the couch - so not relaxing.
In addition - there was the drama that happened in the middle of the night. L and her friend Shea were walking to QFC at 2:30 in the morning when some random guy on a bicycle started circling around them and calling them hood rats. Shea went to talk to the guy and put his hands out to show he had nothing - the guy jumped off his bike and hit Shea in the face with a rock which knocked him out - the biker then hit him while he was down then rode off. L was not injured - Shea was taken to the ER and ended up with a black eye, broken sinus bone, fractured skull, staples in the back of his head, and stitches over his eye.
Yesterday I was at the Big Fish Games Workshop - 3rd year I've gone. I had fun - was on my way home - receive a call from L letting me know that Shea was back and staying the night - again!! I told her we needed to talk - not that night but the next when Shea wasn't here. Well - guess what - L went to work today and hasn't come home yet. I texted her and she said she was in Fall City, didn't have to work tomorrow so she didn't think she'd be coming home. Guess we won't be having that talk.
She has been here for 2 months now to save money for a new place - in the 2 months she has given me $280, removed $40, and cost me $500 in bail money. She has said its because her paychecks haven't been as much as she thought - but oh - she has certainly had enough money for alcohol, cigarettes, marijuana, and partying with friends. I need her to go - I need my home back.
It's back to work tomorrow. I logged in and looked at my emails and I could feel the stress flowing through my veins. So much for being relaxed from vacation.
In addition - there was the drama that happened in the middle of the night. L and her friend Shea were walking to QFC at 2:30 in the morning when some random guy on a bicycle started circling around them and calling them hood rats. Shea went to talk to the guy and put his hands out to show he had nothing - the guy jumped off his bike and hit Shea in the face with a rock which knocked him out - the biker then hit him while he was down then rode off. L was not injured - Shea was taken to the ER and ended up with a black eye, broken sinus bone, fractured skull, staples in the back of his head, and stitches over his eye.
Yesterday I was at the Big Fish Games Workshop - 3rd year I've gone. I had fun - was on my way home - receive a call from L letting me know that Shea was back and staying the night - again!! I told her we needed to talk - not that night but the next when Shea wasn't here. Well - guess what - L went to work today and hasn't come home yet. I texted her and she said she was in Fall City, didn't have to work tomorrow so she didn't think she'd be coming home. Guess we won't be having that talk.
She has been here for 2 months now to save money for a new place - in the 2 months she has given me $280, removed $40, and cost me $500 in bail money. She has said its because her paychecks haven't been as much as she thought - but oh - she has certainly had enough money for alcohol, cigarettes, marijuana, and partying with friends. I need her to go - I need my home back.
It's back to work tomorrow. I logged in and looked at my emails and I could feel the stress flowing through my veins. So much for being relaxed from vacation.
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Take A Breath
Taking a breather tonight - My mind/body/soul need some attention
De
- Mind - Heading into Qtr End Close I always feel like my brain is too full and I am going to forget something. This carries over into home life - did I unplug the curling iron, where are my keys, when was the last time I used my debit card . . . . . and what did I do with it afterwards.
- Body - I always have aches and pains - either age or just out of shape. 2 weeks ago we had a company wide Kickball Tournament - It's been about 40 years since I played Kickball - it was fun and I actually made it onto base 1 time! We then partied at Havana afterwards - I am just too old for doing things like that - I think it took a whole week to recover!
- Soul - My Soul needs some sunshine!! I know summer historically doesn't start in Seattle until July 5th - but we haven't really had much of a Spring this year. I need some bright blue sky and sun.
De
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Horrible Middle School Children
Some of you may know that I enjoy listening to Talk Radio while I’m at work and/or driving home. I listen to KIRO 97.3. Today I was listening to The Dori Monson Show and he talked about a video/story that just broke my heart. The video shows a 60+ year old lady who is a bus monitor on a Middle School bus in New York. A group of Middle School kids, and yes one of them is taping this on their phone and posted it to YouTube, is verbally abusing this woman. The video is 10 minutes long – I only made it through the first minute – I just couldn’t believe what these kids were doing. I have tears in my eyes. If one of these kids was mine – they would not be able to sit down today. What has happened to this generation of kids? When I was growing up we were taught to respect our elders – I would never have talked to an adult the way these kids are. Is this what we get when we raise children in an environment where everyone “wins”, everything they do is “great”, no one fails? Is this the new world of children wanting to be “famous” for doing anything – the more YouTube hits the better! I am sure if this lady had stood up for herself and yelled at the kids, possibly even given them the smack they deserved, the parents would be suing her, the bus driver, and the school system. Because of course – their little angels didn’t deserve it – their little Johnny would never treat someone like that – it wasn’t my kid! What do you think about this video? What do you think should happen to these children? What would you do if it was your child?
If I could find this woman I would give her a big hug and tell her she's beautiful.
De
WARNING – The Language in This Video is NSFW (not safe for work)
If I could find this woman I would give her a big hug and tell her she's beautiful.
De
WARNING – The Language in This Video is NSFW (not safe for work)
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Roomie
OK – Many people have asked so here is an update on the “roommate” situation –
We have been getting along fine – no big blow ups, which is a good thing. The only argument we have had during the three weeks she’s been living here wasn’t even really an argument. I brought up the subject of whether she had found a place to rent and L got very defensive – told me I didn’t understand how stressful it is – then the tears started to roll. I told her I didn’t want to upset her I was just trying to find out what was going on.
She spends a lot of time out with her friends so we don’t see each other very much. Last night we were both home – neither of us was feeling that well though – so we were in our separate bedrooms!
Chores have been going OK. Last week I came home from work one day and she had cleaned the living room and was in the process of vacuuming it – it was a very nice surprise! We both need to spend some time cleaning our respective bedrooms and bathrooms! The kitchen cleaning has been working out too – well, we’ll see when I get home – I did the dishes, ran the dishwasher, put dishes away last night so she is supposed to do dishes tonight when she gets off work.
So it’s all pretty mellow – no drama – no fights.
De
We have been getting along fine – no big blow ups, which is a good thing. The only argument we have had during the three weeks she’s been living here wasn’t even really an argument. I brought up the subject of whether she had found a place to rent and L got very defensive – told me I didn’t understand how stressful it is – then the tears started to roll. I told her I didn’t want to upset her I was just trying to find out what was going on.
She spends a lot of time out with her friends so we don’t see each other very much. Last night we were both home – neither of us was feeling that well though – so we were in our separate bedrooms!
Chores have been going OK. Last week I came home from work one day and she had cleaned the living room and was in the process of vacuuming it – it was a very nice surprise! We both need to spend some time cleaning our respective bedrooms and bathrooms! The kitchen cleaning has been working out too – well, we’ll see when I get home – I did the dishes, ran the dishwasher, put dishes away last night so she is supposed to do dishes tonight when she gets off work.
So it’s all pretty mellow – no drama – no fights.
De
Monday, June 11, 2012
The Voice Inside
I am the voice in D's head. Here is what I'm telling her tonight. No matter how much weight you lose you will still be the fat girl. I tell her this because she has lost weight but no one says anything - a friend of hers just started a diet and has lost some weight and people just keep commenting on how great she looks. These are the same people that have given D looks in the past and made disparaging comments to her face about what she's eating. So no matter what she does - no positive comments come her way - just the mean ones. So why even try. Changing her body won't change her life.
The Voices
The Voices
Sunday, June 3, 2012
So Far So Good
Well - last Wednesday L moved back home. I know - I know! I said it wasn't going to happen - I caved.
She came here on Wednesday evening - so far so good. We both worked during the week and she was with friends all weekend. She came home today - 2 friends in tow - but they have been well behaved - L cooked dinner - they all took the recycling down for me!
We had one opportunity for a big meltdown - L called me today and wanted me to drive out to Kirkland to pick her up from Jen's house - I said nope because I was in the middle of something and I wasn't driving to Kirkland. She tried to argue with me - whined about how many buses it would take to get here - I didn't budge! Yay Me! She finally said OK - hung up - and all was good when she finally got here.
I woke up this morning and for the first time in 4 days my neck wasn't hurting and I didn't have a headache so I quickly gathered recycling together - did the dishes - got some laundry done and then got into baking mode and made 6 dozen peanut butter chocolate chip cookies and 2 loaves of banana bread! My house smells good. Downside - my neck started hurting again and the headache was back - I took 4 Ibuprofen and am hopeful that it stays kicked in so I get some sleep. Last Thursday I was awake until midnight and then woke up at 3 am because it hurt do bad. I went to the chiropractor Friday evening but it only helped out for about 5 minutes. I'm not sure if I pulled a muscle - if my neck is out of joint - or if it is swollen lymph nodes. My neck aches when I swallow - and the pressure point that hurts most is right behind my ear. I hope it goes away.
I gotta go check on my bread!
De
Here is the contract L and I agreed to for her staying here:
Any violation of this contract may result in
eviction
She came here on Wednesday evening - so far so good. We both worked during the week and she was with friends all weekend. She came home today - 2 friends in tow - but they have been well behaved - L cooked dinner - they all took the recycling down for me!
We had one opportunity for a big meltdown - L called me today and wanted me to drive out to Kirkland to pick her up from Jen's house - I said nope because I was in the middle of something and I wasn't driving to Kirkland. She tried to argue with me - whined about how many buses it would take to get here - I didn't budge! Yay Me! She finally said OK - hung up - and all was good when she finally got here.
I woke up this morning and for the first time in 4 days my neck wasn't hurting and I didn't have a headache so I quickly gathered recycling together - did the dishes - got some laundry done and then got into baking mode and made 6 dozen peanut butter chocolate chip cookies and 2 loaves of banana bread! My house smells good. Downside - my neck started hurting again and the headache was back - I took 4 Ibuprofen and am hopeful that it stays kicked in so I get some sleep. Last Thursday I was awake until midnight and then woke up at 3 am because it hurt do bad. I went to the chiropractor Friday evening but it only helped out for about 5 minutes. I'm not sure if I pulled a muscle - if my neck is out of joint - or if it is swollen lymph nodes. My neck aches when I swallow - and the pressure point that hurts most is right behind my ear. I hope it goes away.
I gotta go check on my bread!
De
Here is the contract L and I agreed to for her staying here:
This
agreement starts May 30 2012 when L moves home in order to save
money to move into a rental room of her own.
L agrees that beginning with her June 6th paycheck, she will give
Diana Boyd $200 each paycheck to be deposited in order to save money for moving
out.
L agrees to use her food stamps during the time she is living at home to help
with the cost of groceries.
In Lieu of
contributing money towards utilities, L agrees to complete the following
chores on a weekly basis:
- Scrub her bathroom every Saturday and more often if necessary - to include but not be limited to, toilet, shower, sink, mirror
- Clean out cat box and sweep up litter
- Feed cats and make sure they have fresh water
- Assist with walking Chrissy and cleaning up after her
- Load and unload the dishwasher as needed
- Keep her room clean and clear of garbage, dirty dishes, empty cans, etc
- Responsible for her own laundry
- Clean the kitchen after she uses it
- Assist with keeping common areas clean i.e. dusting, vacuuming
- Cook Dinner once or twice a week depending on work schedule
L agrees
that D is not her on call taxi driver.
She agrees to arrange for her own transportation to and from work – even
if that means walking to the front entrance of Klahanie in order to catch the
269 bus on the weekends.
Household
quiet hours will run from 10:00 p.m. to 8:00 a.m., unless otherwise
arranged. This includes but is not
limited to music volume, TV volume, talking on the phone, etc.
Guests are
limited to no more than 2 people. No overnight
guests without prior arrangement.
Smoking is
not allowed in the house. Cigarette
smoking is permitted on the deck.
Cigarette butts must be disposed of and not left out on the tables or
deck.
Smoking/Use
of any illegal substances is not permitted in or around the house.
This
contract is valid for 1 month. This
contract expires on June 30, 2012. If
L does not have other living arrangements at that time, this contract may be renegotiated.
Friday, June 1, 2012
Starbucks Experience
Starbucks is known not just for their coffee but also for the ability to order your drink in so many different ways so that you can personalize it - someone should remind the barista that I had today in the drive thru of that.
Me - I'll have a Venti Hot Chocolate that is non-fat, lite whip, extra hot, with just 2 pumps of chocolate.
I drive up to the window - not very busy so I got up to the window as the barista was making my drink.
Barista (speaking to the cashier at the window) Wow - she's pretty specific about her drink. Why order a hot chocolate if you don't want the main ingredient.
I wasn't quite up to full snarkiness yet so I kept my mouth shut - what I was thinking though was -Wow, why work at Starbucks if you don't like making personalized drinks.
I wouldn't have to designate how much chocolate to use if your normal amount didn't result in an overly sweet drink. Those of you that know me - know that I love chocolate and I like sweets so if something is too sweet for me then it must be really sweet! Hence - why I ask for only 2 pumps of the chocolate syrup instead of getting the 4 that Starbucks considers the regular amount.
De
Me - I'll have a Venti Hot Chocolate that is non-fat, lite whip, extra hot, with just 2 pumps of chocolate.
I drive up to the window - not very busy so I got up to the window as the barista was making my drink.
Barista (speaking to the cashier at the window) Wow - she's pretty specific about her drink. Why order a hot chocolate if you don't want the main ingredient.
I wasn't quite up to full snarkiness yet so I kept my mouth shut - what I was thinking though was -Wow, why work at Starbucks if you don't like making personalized drinks.
I wouldn't have to designate how much chocolate to use if your normal amount didn't result in an overly sweet drink. Those of you that know me - know that I love chocolate and I like sweets so if something is too sweet for me then it must be really sweet! Hence - why I ask for only 2 pumps of the chocolate syrup instead of getting the 4 that Starbucks considers the regular amount.
De
Monday, May 28, 2012
Ugh
Can't sleep. My mind won't shut off - stressed out because L hasn't said anything about a new place to live and she has to move out of her friends place this week because the lease us up. I just have this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that I'm going to be getting the tearful phone call about how she has nowhere to go. Even though she's known for about 6 weeks that she had to find a place. I just so can't go through this right now.
I already got a glimpse of how it will go - she called me yesterday afternoon from the Folklife Festival because her camera was stolen - yes the one I got her for Christmas. She sat it on the ground and - according to her - just left it for a few seconds! Why would you walk away from something so valuable!! Of course someone is going to walk away with it. She was all full of tears when she called me - but they suddenly dried up when I didn't respond with "Oh honey I'm so sorry. Let me replace it for you." I haven't heard from her since.
Now if I can just hold my ground if the call comes looking for a place to stay. My stomach is going to be in knots all week.
De
I already got a glimpse of how it will go - she called me yesterday afternoon from the Folklife Festival because her camera was stolen - yes the one I got her for Christmas. She sat it on the ground and - according to her - just left it for a few seconds! Why would you walk away from something so valuable!! Of course someone is going to walk away with it. She was all full of tears when she called me - but they suddenly dried up when I didn't respond with "Oh honey I'm so sorry. Let me replace it for you." I haven't heard from her since.
Now if I can just hold my ground if the call comes looking for a place to stay. My stomach is going to be in knots all week.
De
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Tired. Frustrated. Unhappy. Depressed.
This describes how I have felt for the last week or so - I just can't seem to snap out of it. I've tried - I baked last night because that usually works - and it did for awhile. I made brownie peanut butter cups and brought them to work to share. But the frustration and everything else crept in throughout the day so I am back to where I was.
I feel the need for a change of scenery - maybe a whole new life to just start over. The voices in my head have been saying Texas - but then my gut feels sick when I think of everything that would need to get done in order to just pack up and move. I'm not one who deals well with sudden change. Also - what happens if that doesn't work.
I have more to say but the heaviness in my head is making it hard to concentrate - I'm going to go crawl under the covers - hope tomorrow brings something better.
De
I feel the need for a change of scenery - maybe a whole new life to just start over. The voices in my head have been saying Texas - but then my gut feels sick when I think of everything that would need to get done in order to just pack up and move. I'm not one who deals well with sudden change. Also - what happens if that doesn't work.
I have more to say but the heaviness in my head is making it hard to concentrate - I'm going to go crawl under the covers - hope tomorrow brings something better.
De
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Ugh!!
I know things can always be worse . . . . . . . there are people out there who have it worse . . . . . . . . . But My Life SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have you ever had a dream - something that you really wanted - something that was the light at the end of the tunnel - the carrot on the stick. Then it is suddenly gone - and not just gone but actually you gave it away to a friend! So now your life still sucks - you have no light - no carrot - and once again everything goes fabulously for someone else and you had a hand in it. When will it be my turn! When will I get the prize!
I am going to go hide under my covers.
De
Have you ever had a dream - something that you really wanted - something that was the light at the end of the tunnel - the carrot on the stick. Then it is suddenly gone - and not just gone but actually you gave it away to a friend! So now your life still sucks - you have no light - no carrot - and once again everything goes fabulously for someone else and you had a hand in it. When will it be my turn! When will I get the prize!
I am going to go hide under my covers.
De
Sunday, May 13, 2012
As If I Needed To Be Reminded
This weekend has been just dandy . . . . . . . God decided that for some reason I needed to be reminded what it's like to be L's Mom - as if!!
Started out with L staying the night on Thursday seeing as we were doing things together Friday for her birthday. Typical - had no idea when she was going to be here - She got a tiny bit defensive when I texted her to see what the plans were. When she got here she was her normal loud self!!
Friday - the plan was to run to the DOL to renew her ID, go to a movie, then lunch. We got a later start than I thought we would because one of L's friends came by and they went out for a birthday "bowl" - we got to the DOL around 11:30 - which of course is never a quick errand. We got to the movies just in time for the 12:45 show - we saw The Avengers which was a really good movie - also a very long one. We got out at 3:25. L started to get agitated because she wanted to get to her friends house to start getting ready for her birthday bar hop. I said that was fine - it was OK that we skipped lunch - for her to just tell me what the plan was. She started texting on her phone so I stopped walking - waiting for her to tell me if we were going to eat or head to her friends. She then turns to me and says - Can we get going and not just stand here. I told her I was waiting for her to tell me what the plan was - she got bitchy - said we had to go to the car either way - I replied No - that if we were going to eat we didn't need to go to the car yet. She said - No time to eat. OK - we headed to the car. She then got pissy because her phone lost signal in the parking garage. We finally got a hold of her friend - picked her up from work - I dropped them off at her friend's house in Kirkland. When we had left my place L left her work clothes there and said she would come by sometime on Saturday to get them as she had work on Sunday.
Saturday - no word from L - phone turned off. I sent a text to her friend and got a reply a few hours later that L was with her and would call me soon, once her phone was charged. She called me around 8:30pm and said she was heading into Seattle to meet up with a friend because she had left her wallet in their car Friday night. She then wanted to know what time I was heading to bed because she was going to catch the last 554 to the highlands and wanted me to pick her up - oh, this last bus was at 11:30pm!! I said No - not that late. She then said she would call me back - which she did - told me she was hanging out in Seattle with friends until the bars closed and would just take a taxi to my place.
Sunday - L waked me up at 5:30 am when she got home to let me know that it wasn't just her - it was also her friends Jen and Andrew - gave me a story about the person that gave them a ride up here lit up heroin in the car and she didn't want them to ride with him. Said they were just hanging for a bit and trying to figure out how they were going to get home - would probably catch a taxi. She would wake me up around 9:45 am so I could driver her to work. 9:30 rolls around - I wake up - get dressed - go out to the living room - nobody is there - just back packs and phones - no people. I get Chrissy ready to go outside - that's when I see a note on the door that says she's not going to work today - needs to catch up on her sleep - just ran to QFC and would be right back. I go to QFC because I need milk - no sign of her there or on the way back. She finally shows up around 2:30 - same friends in tow. They crash in the living room - drinking beer - sleeping - go out to smoke. I feel like a prisoner in my bedroom because they have taken over the living area. Every time I ask L when they are leaving I can't get a straight answer. Finally she comes to me at 5:15 to see if I can drive them to the Iss Transit Center to catch a bus.
This whole weekend was a series of deja vus!! I have been through this before with her. Now she is crashed on my couch - wants me to wake her up in the morning to get ready for work - wants me to drive her there. So much for my nice 4-Day weekend.
De
Started out with L staying the night on Thursday seeing as we were doing things together Friday for her birthday. Typical - had no idea when she was going to be here - She got a tiny bit defensive when I texted her to see what the plans were. When she got here she was her normal loud self!!
Friday - the plan was to run to the DOL to renew her ID, go to a movie, then lunch. We got a later start than I thought we would because one of L's friends came by and they went out for a birthday "bowl" - we got to the DOL around 11:30 - which of course is never a quick errand. We got to the movies just in time for the 12:45 show - we saw The Avengers which was a really good movie - also a very long one. We got out at 3:25. L started to get agitated because she wanted to get to her friends house to start getting ready for her birthday bar hop. I said that was fine - it was OK that we skipped lunch - for her to just tell me what the plan was. She started texting on her phone so I stopped walking - waiting for her to tell me if we were going to eat or head to her friends. She then turns to me and says - Can we get going and not just stand here. I told her I was waiting for her to tell me what the plan was - she got bitchy - said we had to go to the car either way - I replied No - that if we were going to eat we didn't need to go to the car yet. She said - No time to eat. OK - we headed to the car. She then got pissy because her phone lost signal in the parking garage. We finally got a hold of her friend - picked her up from work - I dropped them off at her friend's house in Kirkland. When we had left my place L left her work clothes there and said she would come by sometime on Saturday to get them as she had work on Sunday.
Saturday - no word from L - phone turned off. I sent a text to her friend and got a reply a few hours later that L was with her and would call me soon, once her phone was charged. She called me around 8:30pm and said she was heading into Seattle to meet up with a friend because she had left her wallet in their car Friday night. She then wanted to know what time I was heading to bed because she was going to catch the last 554 to the highlands and wanted me to pick her up - oh, this last bus was at 11:30pm!! I said No - not that late. She then said she would call me back - which she did - told me she was hanging out in Seattle with friends until the bars closed and would just take a taxi to my place.
Sunday - L waked me up at 5:30 am when she got home to let me know that it wasn't just her - it was also her friends Jen and Andrew - gave me a story about the person that gave them a ride up here lit up heroin in the car and she didn't want them to ride with him. Said they were just hanging for a bit and trying to figure out how they were going to get home - would probably catch a taxi. She would wake me up around 9:45 am so I could driver her to work. 9:30 rolls around - I wake up - get dressed - go out to the living room - nobody is there - just back packs and phones - no people. I get Chrissy ready to go outside - that's when I see a note on the door that says she's not going to work today - needs to catch up on her sleep - just ran to QFC and would be right back. I go to QFC because I need milk - no sign of her there or on the way back. She finally shows up around 2:30 - same friends in tow. They crash in the living room - drinking beer - sleeping - go out to smoke. I feel like a prisoner in my bedroom because they have taken over the living area. Every time I ask L when they are leaving I can't get a straight answer. Finally she comes to me at 5:15 to see if I can drive them to the Iss Transit Center to catch a bus.
This whole weekend was a series of deja vus!! I have been through this before with her. Now she is crashed on my couch - wants me to wake her up in the morning to get ready for work - wants me to drive her there. So much for my nice 4-Day weekend.
De
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Late Late Late
Late night - left work at 6 to go pick up L - I needed to take her to urgent care. This cough she's had was getting worse instead of better - turns out she had bronchitis! So it was then off to Walgreen's for prescriptions. Usually Walgreens is really nice - quick, friendly, inexpensive. So did not happen that way today.
I noticed today that when I go to get on I90 using the metered on ramps I look at the number of cars in each lane - make my choice - then look at the other lane to find which car is in the place I would have been - then I watch to see if I made the right decision. If they get through the lights before me I count how many seconds I would have gained if I chose the other lane! Does That Make Me Crazy!!
De
- wait in line for 15 minutes just to find out if the prescriptions had been called in and to give them L's insurance card
- walk away only to hear them page L to come back to the pharmacy
- They were out of one of the ingredients needed to mix up one of the medicines. Did we want them to forward it to another pharmacy or call the Dr to get a change. We chose to have them call.
- Wait for 10 minutes to find out if that worked. It did and they said everything should be ready in 20 min.
- Head to Target to do some quick shopping while Walgreen's gets prescriptions ready
- Spent an hour in Target waiting for L to pick out and try on the dress she wanted to get for her birthday - she did pick out a really cute one! Leopard print with matching shoes
- Head to the Drive Thru at Walgreen's
- Wait 15 minutes while they help the car in front of us - then finally it's our turn!
- Guy asks if L has insurance and we told him yes and that we had already provided all that information when we dropped off the prescriptions. Didn't matter he wanted to see the card again.
- Wait 5 minutes while he types around on the computer - finally tells me the price of the antibiotic - $5 then tells me that the inhaler will be $42 and did I still want to pay for that. Oh gee - No, I'll just let L suffer!! Of course I'm going to pay for that. He then starts ringing it up and I tell him that there should be 3 prescriptions. Oh - let me look.
- Wait another 5 minutes - he comes back and says they are going to mix that up and it will be a few minutes while they get it ready. I said "What?!? We dropped it off over an hour ago." Well that prescription is going to be $32 and they didn't want to mix it until they were assured that I was going to pay for it!!! He then asked if we wanted to come inside and wait. Uh No - we will stay right here in our car.
- Finally after 10 minutes he gets the total for me - I turn over my credit card - kaching kaching $$$$
- Now it's off to drive L to the p[lace she is staying in Redmond and then drive back home.
I noticed today that when I go to get on I90 using the metered on ramps I look at the number of cars in each lane - make my choice - then look at the other lane to find which car is in the place I would have been - then I watch to see if I made the right decision. If they get through the lights before me I count how many seconds I would have gained if I chose the other lane! Does That Make Me Crazy!!
De
Thursday, April 26, 2012
It's The Weekend . . . . . . . Almost
The weekend is almost here and so far it looks to be a little less hectic than last weekend. Last weekend I was the driver for transporting L's belongings to my storage unit. She had to move out of the house she'd been living in. Seems that not only has the Rent Collector been harassing L and trying to get her to move out - the person that the rent money goes to hasn't been paying the bills. Not sure exactly how the whole rental thing works with this house - Jonathon collects the money and gives it to Tom who is supposed to pay the bills as well as pay whoever owns the house. There hasn't been Internet for a couple months, the cables been out for longer than that, no hot water for at least 2 weeks, a notice from PSE for non payment was on the door as well as a notice from the owners of the house telling everyone they had 3 Days to pack their stuff and get out.
Luckily L had already decided she was moving out because of the harassment from Jonathon and the fact that a week ago Monday she came back to her house only to find that someone had removed the door to her room! She's not behind on rent so this was just another thing to piss her off to make her move.
Her and K came up with the plan to move her stuff into my storage and for L to move in with K until they find a place to move into together. I was very proud of her - not once did the question of whether she could live with me come up! My baby is becoming more and more of an adult each day.
So last weekend I drove the car full of stuff and L moved it out of her place and into the storage unit.
My plans for this weekend do include baking!! I got some mini bundt pans and my plan is to make little cakes for a co-workers birthday on Monday. I will try to take pics as I make them and post everything as a step by step blog!
Saw this on FB today and it just seemed to fit my life:
De
Luckily L had already decided she was moving out because of the harassment from Jonathon and the fact that a week ago Monday she came back to her house only to find that someone had removed the door to her room! She's not behind on rent so this was just another thing to piss her off to make her move.
Her and K came up with the plan to move her stuff into my storage and for L to move in with K until they find a place to move into together. I was very proud of her - not once did the question of whether she could live with me come up! My baby is becoming more and more of an adult each day.
So last weekend I drove the car full of stuff and L moved it out of her place and into the storage unit.
My plans for this weekend do include baking!! I got some mini bundt pans and my plan is to make little cakes for a co-workers birthday on Monday. I will try to take pics as I make them and post everything as a step by step blog!
Saw this on FB today and it just seemed to fit my life:
De
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
WTH
I thought you were supposed to feel better after a therapy appointment - not so today! I went in there actually feeling pretty good - good mood - not much stress and left there feeling worthless - hopeless - crying - and the voices in my head wide awake!
Started out with Lisa making a comment about how she hates the weather here - doesn't like how we have no spring - wants to move away - how do people stay here. I said well I've been here my whole life and she responded with How's that going for you! It pretty much went downhill from there.
We started out talking about something that she couldn't understand why I was OK with it and not mad - she kept bringing up things like she was hoping I would get mad - but this thing honestly doesn't have me upset - I just accepted it because it's pretty much how my life goes - I've learned not to be surprised when things don't go my way.
Somehow we got on the topic of avoiding conflict and not being able to say No - she asked why I couldn't say No. I don't want to upset anyone and I worry what people will think about me if I say No. She asked - What would people think about you - what could they find out. This moved on to the topic of me not being able to find someone to date - she said well you need to put time into it - this just pissed me off because I have tried - I've been on dating sights - I've gone on blind dates. I told her - well kind of yelled at her - not to say I've not put any time into this over the past 18 years - I have done things and nothing works. I haven't met anyone which just makes me feel bad about myself - the conversation then turns to was I like this when I was younger - uh No! I had lots of friends when I was growing up. The turning point was the divorce - I joke around often saying that I lost my friends in the divorce - but it is a reality. I lost my whole social circle.
This seems to continue to happen - I have friends and then something happens - either a change of jobs, a change in marital status, having kids, etc . . . . and when that happens I get left behind. When that keeps happening you start to doubt yourself and wonder what's wrong with you . . . I mean . . . I'm not stupid - I know that the common denominator in all of this is me. I just don't know why - why don't I ever get chosen - why aren't I the one people stay with - what is so unlikeable about me.
So here I am - from good mood to depressed mood in 45 minutes and $160! The voices in my head are awake - replaying my life over and over - all the what ifs - all the things I could have done different.
De
Started out with Lisa making a comment about how she hates the weather here - doesn't like how we have no spring - wants to move away - how do people stay here. I said well I've been here my whole life and she responded with How's that going for you! It pretty much went downhill from there.
We started out talking about something that she couldn't understand why I was OK with it and not mad - she kept bringing up things like she was hoping I would get mad - but this thing honestly doesn't have me upset - I just accepted it because it's pretty much how my life goes - I've learned not to be surprised when things don't go my way.
Somehow we got on the topic of avoiding conflict and not being able to say No - she asked why I couldn't say No. I don't want to upset anyone and I worry what people will think about me if I say No. She asked - What would people think about you - what could they find out. This moved on to the topic of me not being able to find someone to date - she said well you need to put time into it - this just pissed me off because I have tried - I've been on dating sights - I've gone on blind dates. I told her - well kind of yelled at her - not to say I've not put any time into this over the past 18 years - I have done things and nothing works. I haven't met anyone which just makes me feel bad about myself - the conversation then turns to was I like this when I was younger - uh No! I had lots of friends when I was growing up. The turning point was the divorce - I joke around often saying that I lost my friends in the divorce - but it is a reality. I lost my whole social circle.
This seems to continue to happen - I have friends and then something happens - either a change of jobs, a change in marital status, having kids, etc . . . . and when that happens I get left behind. When that keeps happening you start to doubt yourself and wonder what's wrong with you . . . I mean . . . I'm not stupid - I know that the common denominator in all of this is me. I just don't know why - why don't I ever get chosen - why aren't I the one people stay with - what is so unlikeable about me.
So here I am - from good mood to depressed mood in 45 minutes and $160! The voices in my head are awake - replaying my life over and over - all the what ifs - all the things I could have done different.
De
Friday, April 13, 2012
Hi :)
Hi Readers - I have not fallen off the face of the earth - I have just been lazy!! Here are a few things that have happened:
Chrissy - she seems to be recovering nicely from her dog bite injuries. She saw the vet a couple weeks ago - her hip area was still swollen so I had to keep her still for a week! Any of you that have followed me know that Chrissy is the most active and jumping dog I have ever seen - it was not an easy task to keep her still - I must have done a good job because her exam last week showed things were getting better and no x-rays were needed! She has to go back tomorrow for her vaccines - she gets to stay for a few hours because she has had adverse reactions to one of the shots previously. I feel like a Mom whose child is going somewhere for the day - There is so much I can try and get done without her following me around the house!!
I mailed a certified letter to the other dog owner last week. She has yet to pick it up from the Post Office. I guess my next step is going to be to take her to small claims court. Darn it - why couldn't this be civil!! No information on the Animal Control Case - they must have processed something though because I got a letter today in the mail informing me that their records do not show Chrissy being a licensed pet and I have 72 hours to comply! Great!!
L - there have been a few incidents with her but nothing major - mostly her just yelling at me because she's not getting her way. A few weeks back a the Monday after Chrissy got hurt - L called me because she had left her wallet in my car so she had no bus money - she was at her friend K's house in Redmond. I drove there to pick her up and drop her off at the Eastgate Park and Ride so she could get to work. Well - she had a lot of stuff in her back pack - it was heavy - her back and neck hurt. When I dropped her off she slammed the door! I asked her if that was because I wouldn't double back to Issaquah and take her to work - yup. I said I had to get to work too and couldn't do it. She slammed the door again and at the top of her lungs yelled F*** You in the middle of the parking lot. No good deed goes unpunished. Seems that most of our issues come up when I won't drive her somewhere or give her money. She needs to find someone rich who can give her money and a driver!!
Church - this could be it's own post because there is a lot of stuff going around in my mind. I will say one thing tonight and then write more later. I can kinda understand why some people might consider it a cult - not because of their beliefs but because of how hard they work to get you back to church when you haven't been there in awhile. They just won't let you be. More to come later.
De
Chrissy - she seems to be recovering nicely from her dog bite injuries. She saw the vet a couple weeks ago - her hip area was still swollen so I had to keep her still for a week! Any of you that have followed me know that Chrissy is the most active and jumping dog I have ever seen - it was not an easy task to keep her still - I must have done a good job because her exam last week showed things were getting better and no x-rays were needed! She has to go back tomorrow for her vaccines - she gets to stay for a few hours because she has had adverse reactions to one of the shots previously. I feel like a Mom whose child is going somewhere for the day - There is so much I can try and get done without her following me around the house!!
I mailed a certified letter to the other dog owner last week. She has yet to pick it up from the Post Office. I guess my next step is going to be to take her to small claims court. Darn it - why couldn't this be civil!! No information on the Animal Control Case - they must have processed something though because I got a letter today in the mail informing me that their records do not show Chrissy being a licensed pet and I have 72 hours to comply! Great!!
L - there have been a few incidents with her but nothing major - mostly her just yelling at me because she's not getting her way. A few weeks back a the Monday after Chrissy got hurt - L called me because she had left her wallet in my car so she had no bus money - she was at her friend K's house in Redmond. I drove there to pick her up and drop her off at the Eastgate Park and Ride so she could get to work. Well - she had a lot of stuff in her back pack - it was heavy - her back and neck hurt. When I dropped her off she slammed the door! I asked her if that was because I wouldn't double back to Issaquah and take her to work - yup. I said I had to get to work too and couldn't do it. She slammed the door again and at the top of her lungs yelled F*** You in the middle of the parking lot. No good deed goes unpunished. Seems that most of our issues come up when I won't drive her somewhere or give her money. She needs to find someone rich who can give her money and a driver!!
Church - this could be it's own post because there is a lot of stuff going around in my mind. I will say one thing tonight and then write more later. I can kinda understand why some people might consider it a cult - not because of their beliefs but because of how hard they work to get you back to church when you haven't been there in awhile. They just won't let you be. More to come later.
De
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Chrissy Got Hurt
Well - today was eventful - and not in a good way. Everything was going along like any regular Sunday. Chores - hanging with the pup - watching Law & Order. A little bit before 2:00 I took Chrissy out for a bathroom break. We were walking along the walkway in front of our building - heading out towards the road. We got to the end of the walk - I glanced up and saw a brown dog on a leash but with no one holding the other end - I went to pull Chrissy back towards me but this dog was fast and it jumped on Chrissy - grabbed her by the behind and pinned her to the ground. A second dog then came running at us and started attacking Chrissy - the owner was trying to grab the leashes but these dogs were big and she had no control over them. I screamed at the top of my lungs and tried to get in there to pull Chrissy away from them. They both had her pinned to the ground and I could hear Chrissy crying out in pain. It seemed to go on forever but I finally got her away from them - she was shaking so bad and I was trying to make sure she wasn't broken anywhere. I honestly was expecting to see her torn in half with how they were tugging on her.
This owner had no control over her dogs and she kept telling me - oh your dog is fine. They weren't trying to hurt her!! WTH!! They went after her like she was a chew toy!! The lady then took off with her dogs before I got my wits about me and could ask her for her name, number, and which building she lived in. I do know that she lives in the same Condo Complex and I think she is in a building close to mine. I took Chrissy up to our house and started looking her over. I came across discoloration and what looked like puncture wounds. I wrapped her up and took her to the vet. I got there and the Tech said the Dr had left about 5 minutes ago but he would try to call him. The vet didn't answer but when the tech was talking to me about going to Alpine Hospital the phone rang and it was him. The Tech gave him my name, Chrissy's name, and said she was attacked by 2 dogs. Dr Brar said he was turning around and he would be right back at the office soon. This vet is wonderful! He is so loving and caring for all his patients. He came and looked her over - we found some scrapes and wounds on her belly - he then took her to the back room and they had to shave off her fur on her behind so they could see all of the wounds and make sure she didn't need stitches. When they brought her back in you could see the bruising in the shapes of the dogs mouths!! It looks so bad. She was lucky though - Dr Brar said when little dogs are attacked by such big dogs they worry about fractured hips, nerve damage, and internal organ damage. It looked like she wasn't hurt to that extent. They gave her shots of pain meds and antibiotics and sent me home with more to give her over the next week. We have to go back in on Saturday for a recheck to make sure she is healing.
Next on the agenda is filing a report with animal control, calling the onsite manager for the Condo's to see if he knows where this gal lives, calling the Home Owners Assoc to file a report, and then try to find this lady so I can get her to reimburse me for the vet bills.
I am just so glad Chrissy is alive!!
De
This owner had no control over her dogs and she kept telling me - oh your dog is fine. They weren't trying to hurt her!! WTH!! They went after her like she was a chew toy!! The lady then took off with her dogs before I got my wits about me and could ask her for her name, number, and which building she lived in. I do know that she lives in the same Condo Complex and I think she is in a building close to mine. I took Chrissy up to our house and started looking her over. I came across discoloration and what looked like puncture wounds. I wrapped her up and took her to the vet. I got there and the Tech said the Dr had left about 5 minutes ago but he would try to call him. The vet didn't answer but when the tech was talking to me about going to Alpine Hospital the phone rang and it was him. The Tech gave him my name, Chrissy's name, and said she was attacked by 2 dogs. Dr Brar said he was turning around and he would be right back at the office soon. This vet is wonderful! He is so loving and caring for all his patients. He came and looked her over - we found some scrapes and wounds on her belly - he then took her to the back room and they had to shave off her fur on her behind so they could see all of the wounds and make sure she didn't need stitches. When they brought her back in you could see the bruising in the shapes of the dogs mouths!! It looks so bad. She was lucky though - Dr Brar said when little dogs are attacked by such big dogs they worry about fractured hips, nerve damage, and internal organ damage. It looked like she wasn't hurt to that extent. They gave her shots of pain meds and antibiotics and sent me home with more to give her over the next week. We have to go back in on Saturday for a recheck to make sure she is healing.
Next on the agenda is filing a report with animal control, calling the onsite manager for the Condo's to see if he knows where this gal lives, calling the Home Owners Assoc to file a report, and then try to find this lady so I can get her to reimburse me for the vet bills.
I am just so glad Chrissy is alive!!
De
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Best Laid Plans . . . . . Yada Yada Yada
I should just not make plans at all . . . . . . . plan was to run a couple errands Saturday morning, do laundry, dishes, rearrange bedroom furniture. Those plans went right out the window when my cell phone rang at 330 Saturday morning - any guesses as to who it was . . .ahh forget it - y'all know who would call me at 330 - L! She was at a party up here on the plateau - things were getting full of drama and she wanted to know if she could come crash here - what was I going to say "Uh, No - you can't" I asked if she had her key - she said yup and that she would either get someone to drive her over here or she would walk. Which - that part I would have laughed at if I wasn't half asleep - she will walk miles for a place to crash but won't walk a mile to get food. Guess we know what's important to her. A couch to crash on or alcohol/cigarettes.
Interrupted sleep is not good for me - neither is having someone asleep on my couch - the condo isn't that big. So I started cleaning up the kitchen a little bit - I started one load of laundry. Then L woke up - started talking really loud on her phone! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I asked her what her plans were for the day - where did she need to be - so on and so forth. Yeah - she had no plans. So I ate breakfast and then said I needed to run a couple errands. She went with me and grabbed her stuff in case we decided she needed to go home. Home Depot for Coaxial Cable so I could move things around in my room. Then I looked at lights - I need a new one by my front door. We find one, L is good at changing out lights so I brought her back up to the house. She changed it out - I drove her to Kelley's place - got back home at 800 - which was actually 900 because of the time change. My whole Saturday out the window!
Sunday I got up early to head down to Kent to go to church with Jason and his family for his new daughter Sydney's Baby Blessing. Had to leave here at 800 - which was really 700! Way too early. It was nice though - Sydney is really cute and a really good baby. When I got home I was tired so I spent time on the couch - the day just flew by - next thing I knew it was 800 and time for Amazing Race.
Guess my plans for this past weekend will have to wait until this coming weekend - I am taking a couple days off so it will be a nice 4-Day weekend for me!
Funny story from L changing out the light - I flipped the circuit breaker so she would zap herself. After she got it all wired we flipped the switch and it didn't work. So we flipped off the breaker again and she made a quick change - this time it worked! Funny thing was that all the lights that are on that circuit came back on except for the hall lights. I turning switches on and off wondering WTH is going on - L comes down the hall and turns the dimmer switch - Let there be light!! I laughed so hard! I had been punching the dimmer switch on and off - not knowing that L had turned it down during the night instead of actually clicking it off!! Sucks getting old!
De
Interrupted sleep is not good for me - neither is having someone asleep on my couch - the condo isn't that big. So I started cleaning up the kitchen a little bit - I started one load of laundry. Then L woke up - started talking really loud on her phone! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I asked her what her plans were for the day - where did she need to be - so on and so forth. Yeah - she had no plans. So I ate breakfast and then said I needed to run a couple errands. She went with me and grabbed her stuff in case we decided she needed to go home. Home Depot for Coaxial Cable so I could move things around in my room. Then I looked at lights - I need a new one by my front door. We find one, L is good at changing out lights so I brought her back up to the house. She changed it out - I drove her to Kelley's place - got back home at 800 - which was actually 900 because of the time change. My whole Saturday out the window!
Sunday I got up early to head down to Kent to go to church with Jason and his family for his new daughter Sydney's Baby Blessing. Had to leave here at 800 - which was really 700! Way too early. It was nice though - Sydney is really cute and a really good baby. When I got home I was tired so I spent time on the couch - the day just flew by - next thing I knew it was 800 and time for Amazing Race.
Guess my plans for this past weekend will have to wait until this coming weekend - I am taking a couple days off so it will be a nice 4-Day weekend for me!
Funny story from L changing out the light - I flipped the circuit breaker so she would zap herself. After she got it all wired we flipped the switch and it didn't work. So we flipped off the breaker again and she made a quick change - this time it worked! Funny thing was that all the lights that are on that circuit came back on except for the hall lights. I turning switches on and off wondering WTH is going on - L comes down the hall and turns the dimmer switch - Let there be light!! I laughed so hard! I had been punching the dimmer switch on and off - not knowing that L had turned it down during the night instead of actually clicking it off!! Sucks getting old!
De
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Reality Bites
Boy am I glad I had to work late tonight . . . . . . . No, I haven't finally lost it! It was just perfect timing.
Tuesday is the day L's Unemployment Check comes in the mail and I usually end up picking her up from work, running up to my place to get the mail, back down the hill to cash the check, then to her place and then back to my house - makes for a long evening. Well - today she called me around 4 - she had gotten off work early and was wondering if I knew when I would be getting off work. Told her probably around 530 or 600. She said she would see if someone could come get her to go up to get her check and would call me back. Got a call at 515 and was told her friend Chris could come get her in 30 min - would I be off before then - Nope, she should have her friend take her. This isn't what made me happy to work late - although it did contribute to it. The happiness came when I got a call at 630 that went like this:
L - "Mom, my check was only for $46"
D - "Maybe you ran out of Unemployment"
L - she reads me some of the tags at the bottom of her check
D - "L, what does it say your balance is"
L - reads more off her check
D - "L, what is your balance"
L - "It says my balance is $0"
D - "Unemployment is over"
L - "Aww . . . %$#&%"
Y'all would be so proud of me, I didn't say what was going through my head because I knew it would piss her off and I didn't want to deal with the histrionics.
Here's what I was thinking:
De
Tuesday is the day L's Unemployment Check comes in the mail and I usually end up picking her up from work, running up to my place to get the mail, back down the hill to cash the check, then to her place and then back to my house - makes for a long evening. Well - today she called me around 4 - she had gotten off work early and was wondering if I knew when I would be getting off work. Told her probably around 530 or 600. She said she would see if someone could come get her to go up to get her check and would call me back. Got a call at 515 and was told her friend Chris could come get her in 30 min - would I be off before then - Nope, she should have her friend take her. This isn't what made me happy to work late - although it did contribute to it. The happiness came when I got a call at 630 that went like this:
L - "Mom, my check was only for $46"
D - "Maybe you ran out of Unemployment"
L - she reads me some of the tags at the bottom of her check
D - "L, what does it say your balance is"
L - reads more off her check
D - "L, what is your balance"
L - "It says my balance is $0"
D - "Unemployment is over"
L - "Aww . . . %$#&%"
Y'all would be so proud of me, I didn't say what was going through my head because I knew it would piss her off and I didn't want to deal with the histrionics.
Here's what I was thinking:
- I told you to keep an eye on the balance because you were going to run out soon and you needed to figure out what you were going to do when that money stopped coming in. Basically an "I Told You So"
- I am so glad I'm not with her right now because there would be tears, hysterics, and lots of yelling at Mom.
- L meet Reality - Reality meet L
- Unemployment Checks are done - last apron string is cut - No more driving her up here to get her check or trying to figure out how to drop it off to her.
- Ooohhh - I hope I don't get any late night calls full of tears, what am I going to do, and/or can I come live with you.
De
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
A Few Items
This bullet point update is brought to you by Rice Krispies and Survivor.
Discovered on Monday that I should not listen to 80's music when I'm feeling down. For some reason, all it did was bring up bad memories, regrets, and had me feeling worse than I did before.
Last night I had an actual phone conversation with L. No arguing, snarking, or hang ups. We talked about books of all things! I went to my bookcase and started reading off titles I had. She actually ended up choosing a book that I had and her friend Kelly had. She even read on the bus today.
I have been adjusting my eating habits and watching my calories. I need to work on it though - I'm so worried about not having enough calories at the end of the day that I don't eat much during the work day - I then get home starving with lots of calories to spend. like tonight - I had half my calories left for dinner- I had rice krispies, milk, and a banana - its now 9:00 and I still have 300 left to use.
Survivor - learned a few things tonight. A tribe of all woman will implode. No communication skills and tonight they decided to keep the fun, young, stupid one and send home the stronger, older one. The guys are so taking them down. Also, old men with big pot bellies should not wear teeny tiny speedos. They also should not dance around the campfire while wearing it. That is one sight I can never unsee.
De
Discovered on Monday that I should not listen to 80's music when I'm feeling down. For some reason, all it did was bring up bad memories, regrets, and had me feeling worse than I did before.
Last night I had an actual phone conversation with L. No arguing, snarking, or hang ups. We talked about books of all things! I went to my bookcase and started reading off titles I had. She actually ended up choosing a book that I had and her friend Kelly had. She even read on the bus today.
I have been adjusting my eating habits and watching my calories. I need to work on it though - I'm so worried about not having enough calories at the end of the day that I don't eat much during the work day - I then get home starving with lots of calories to spend. like tonight - I had half my calories left for dinner- I had rice krispies, milk, and a banana - its now 9:00 and I still have 300 left to use.
Survivor - learned a few things tonight. A tribe of all woman will implode. No communication skills and tonight they decided to keep the fun, young, stupid one and send home the stronger, older one. The guys are so taking them down. Also, old men with big pot bellies should not wear teeny tiny speedos. They also should not dance around the campfire while wearing it. That is one sight I can never unsee.
De
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Weekend
Didn't really do much this weekend - I made the mistake of channel surfing and finding Twilight New Moon and Eclipse playing back to back on Showtime! Yup - that was a block of time spent on the couch - I am just a little obsessed with those movies - I've watched them back to back quite a few times now.
Today - I spent some time trying to get the mats and knots out of Chrissy's fur - she does not like to sit very still! I gave up trying to comb the ones out of her legs and paws - I ended up cutting them out. She know looks like I took a weed whacker to her legs. There is still a patch on her neck I need to work on - then I will need to take her to the groomers to get the hair cut evened up a bit.
L called me today - she and her Dad were at the Museum of Flight and there was a Star Wars gathering there - she had to call me because she was so excited.
Part of me wishes I was the part time parent - the one who gets to show up every couple of years and do fun things - it definitely seems to be the better deal. These days all I get are the phone calls asking for money or crying about the latest drama - then having her get pissed because I'm not reacting the way she wanted me to - Case in point - Friday she called me during my lunch hour in tears because she couldn't find something and wanted to know if I'd seen it - she was crying so hard I couldn't understand her. I guess I wasn't as upset as she wanted me to be - she hung up on me. I thought we had been disconnected so I called her back - she then informed me that No - she had hung up on me. Yup - she did the exact thing to me that she gets pissed if I do to her. Her Dad never has to deal with this - Can I be that parent for awhile!!
De
Today - I spent some time trying to get the mats and knots out of Chrissy's fur - she does not like to sit very still! I gave up trying to comb the ones out of her legs and paws - I ended up cutting them out. She know looks like I took a weed whacker to her legs. There is still a patch on her neck I need to work on - then I will need to take her to the groomers to get the hair cut evened up a bit.
L called me today - she and her Dad were at the Museum of Flight and there was a Star Wars gathering there - she had to call me because she was so excited.
Part of me wishes I was the part time parent - the one who gets to show up every couple of years and do fun things - it definitely seems to be the better deal. These days all I get are the phone calls asking for money or crying about the latest drama - then having her get pissed because I'm not reacting the way she wanted me to - Case in point - Friday she called me during my lunch hour in tears because she couldn't find something and wanted to know if I'd seen it - she was crying so hard I couldn't understand her. I guess I wasn't as upset as she wanted me to be - she hung up on me. I thought we had been disconnected so I called her back - she then informed me that No - she had hung up on me. Yup - she did the exact thing to me that she gets pissed if I do to her. Her Dad never has to deal with this - Can I be that parent for awhile!!
De
Friday, February 17, 2012
Thursday, February 16, 2012
One Way?
Chrissy just made me giggle - I heard a noise on the other side of the living room - I looked up and all I could see was her butt and a wagging tail - her head was buried in one of her toy boxes and she was digging around trying to get at a toy. She is such a toddler!! She has toys all over the living room but she still needs to pull out more! Crazy Crazy Pup!
OK - time for bed. Tomorrow is Friday!! Yay!!
De
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Chemistry?
Depression - this is how it works - one minute your down and the next everything is fine.
Nothing in my environment has changed - I'm still buried at work, my house is still a disaster, I'm still overwhelmed - but I can feel the change in my brain! I'm happy, energized, positive. Feel like I can accomplish something. It's times like these where I ride the wave and try to do as much as I can. I sometimes wonder if I might be a little Bi-Polar - I certainly have low lows and high highs. Although, when I'm on a high I don't go out and do destructive things, spend lots of money, or take risks.
I am so excited for L this week - her Dad is coming in on Friday to spend a long weekend with her. It's been just about 3 years since they've seen each other. She is so excited - I believe they are both going to stay at her Dad's parent's house - that way they can spend as much time together as possible. I told L that if it worked out maybe the 3 of us could have lunch or dinner together - she would like to have both her parents in the same room. It's been so long and I think L could benefit from seeing her parents be civil with each other. We shall see.
De
I am so excited for L this week - her Dad is coming in on Friday to spend a long weekend with her. It's been just about 3 years since they've seen each other. She is so excited - I believe they are both going to stay at her Dad's parent's house - that way they can spend as much time together as possible. I told L that if it worked out maybe the 3 of us could have lunch or dinner together - she would like to have both her parents in the same room. It's been so long and I think L could benefit from seeing her parents be civil with each other. We shall see.
De
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Good Day
Tonight while watching Glee I saw a commercial that was soooo about my Dad!! It was one of those Pemco insurance commercials. I think they may need to pay my Dad cuz he was certainly the inspiration for this one!
Speaking of Glee - tonight's show was an odd coincidence of timing - Amber Riley who plays Mercedes on the show sang I Will Always Love You that was one of Whitney Houston's biggest hits. She did an incredible job and it couldn't have been better if it had been planned. De
Monday, February 13, 2012
They're Watching
I swear - this weekend I felt like they were watching me!
Saturday morning someone from church knocked on my door at 9:30 - that's just a little too early on a Saturday morning. Of course Chrissy started barking, but I've gotten pretty good at grabbing her up quickly and sneaking up to the peephole on the door to see who is out there. This time it was one of the gals who isn't very warm and fuzzy and has a way of making me feel like I'm doing something wrong or I'm being selfish. She knocked 3 separate times and stood at my door for 5 minutes!! Really - if I haven't answered the door withing 1 minute then I'm probably not going to answer the door. A knock on the door is a request for a face to face conversation - not a demand. I don't have to open the door if I don't want to.
Sunday night I took Chrissy out at 8:30 pm - we got to the bottom of the stairs and headed toward to the street - I hear foot steps behind me - it was the missionaries. They said they were in the area and were just going to head to my place to see how I was doing. Interesting how they just happened to be right there when Chrissy needed to go outside.
Just feeling a little paranoid!!
De
Saturday morning someone from church knocked on my door at 9:30 - that's just a little too early on a Saturday morning. Of course Chrissy started barking, but I've gotten pretty good at grabbing her up quickly and sneaking up to the peephole on the door to see who is out there. This time it was one of the gals who isn't very warm and fuzzy and has a way of making me feel like I'm doing something wrong or I'm being selfish. She knocked 3 separate times and stood at my door for 5 minutes!! Really - if I haven't answered the door withing 1 minute then I'm probably not going to answer the door. A knock on the door is a request for a face to face conversation - not a demand. I don't have to open the door if I don't want to.
Sunday night I took Chrissy out at 8:30 pm - we got to the bottom of the stairs and headed toward to the street - I hear foot steps behind me - it was the missionaries. They said they were in the area and were just going to head to my place to see how I was doing. Interesting how they just happened to be right there when Chrissy needed to go outside.
Just feeling a little paranoid!!
De
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Roller Coaster
Up - Down - Up . . . I was on a roller coaster ride yesterday . . . . mentally not an actual ride! A ride would have been more fun. I got up this morning and I was in a good mood - it was Friday . .Yay!! I baked last night and the bread turned out and tasted great - My workday looked to be a little less stressful - no traffic this morning. I was actually pretty chipper all day long. Even more so when I got a text message from Amazon letting me know that my Breaking Dawn DVD had been delivered - it was a good day. Then came . . . . . . . . . the call from L. Her TurboTax card wasn't working - she needed me to help her get it fixed - then the question of when I was leaving work, maybe I could drive her home. I was feeling good so why not.
Everything was going fine until . . . . . I took her to the Chevron so she could take money off her TurboTax Card. While she was inside I got a call from my mom - whom I hadn't talked to in awhile. L tried calling me and I figured if she needed me bad enough she would come outside - uh no - it just pissed her off that I didn't drop what I was doing to take her call - after all her needs are the most important. She finally came outside to the car and started yelling at me for not taking her call - what was so urgent - the ATM Machine was telling her she could only take out $400 and she needed to know if that just meant from that machine or for the day. After I explained it all to her she went back inside - then she came back out to the car and snapped at me that her bus to Kellie's was going to be there soon and she still needed to get home - uh yeah - like I was the one taking too much time in the Chevron. I got her dropped at her house and I took off before she could get mad at me again. She still succeeded in putting a damper on my mood.
That was until I got home and found my Breaking Dawn DVD waiting for me!!!! Yay!!
De
Everything was going fine until . . . . . I took her to the Chevron so she could take money off her TurboTax Card. While she was inside I got a call from my mom - whom I hadn't talked to in awhile. L tried calling me and I figured if she needed me bad enough she would come outside - uh no - it just pissed her off that I didn't drop what I was doing to take her call - after all her needs are the most important. She finally came outside to the car and started yelling at me for not taking her call - what was so urgent - the ATM Machine was telling her she could only take out $400 and she needed to know if that just meant from that machine or for the day. After I explained it all to her she went back inside - then she came back out to the car and snapped at me that her bus to Kellie's was going to be there soon and she still needed to get home - uh yeah - like I was the one taking too much time in the Chevron. I got her dropped at her house and I took off before she could get mad at me again. She still succeeded in putting a damper on my mood.
That was until I got home and found my Breaking Dawn DVD waiting for me!!!! Yay!!
De
Thursday, February 9, 2012
A Little Baking - A Little Smile
Well - the stress bubbled up and over . . . . . . . . no crying . . . . . . just a tremendous amount of energy when I got home from work - so I did what makes me happy and helps me to just forget everything and breathe . . . . . I baked! I had a bag of bananas just waiting to be used - they weren't as mushy as I would normally use but I so needed to bake. Chrissy doesn't like it when I am hanging in the kitchen - not sure why, maybe because that's her home during the day and she's worried I'm going to do something to it. She just stands guard in there watching me move around - every once in awhile jumping up to tag my butt.
I had just finished mixing everything together and was getting the pans ready - I set the spatula down on the counter - it fell off and scared the beejesus out of Chrissy! I thought it had just landed on the floor next to her. After the bread was in the oven and I went to the couch, Chrissy jumped up next to me - I started petting her and my hand ran through a gooey mess - yup - the spatula had landed on her before it hit the floor!! Time for a really quick bath!
While baking I watched The Ellen Show, which I had recorded during the day because my two favorite little girls from England were back on - Sophia Grace and Rosie!! If you have never seen them you should search on YouTube and watch their videos. I will give you a quick taste of what I mean - watch this.
This just made me smile when I got home - which was much needed.
De
I had just finished mixing everything together and was getting the pans ready - I set the spatula down on the counter - it fell off and scared the beejesus out of Chrissy! I thought it had just landed on the floor next to her. After the bread was in the oven and I went to the couch, Chrissy jumped up next to me - I started petting her and my hand ran through a gooey mess - yup - the spatula had landed on her before it hit the floor!! Time for a really quick bath!
While baking I watched The Ellen Show, which I had recorded during the day because my two favorite little girls from England were back on - Sophia Grace and Rosie!! If you have never seen them you should search on YouTube and watch their videos. I will give you a quick taste of what I mean - watch this.
This just made me smile when I got home - which was much needed.
De
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Muddled
Muddle Mind - that's what I feel like tonight. I have been working on so many different things at work these days that it's all starting to muddle together. My head is so full that it's almost making my eyes leak . . . . . . . . aka close to tears . . . . . . . No Crying in Finance! It's not any one thing in particular - it's just everything all at once - needing to be done right now - I'm drowning!
I'm not sure if these feelings have anything to do with depression or if it's just normal - I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this to see if what I'm feeling is something that all people go through. I hate feeling like I'm going to burst out into tears - so I swallow it all down - bury it in the back of my mind - hope it doesn't bubble out at some inopportune moment!
People that I could talk to either want to fix it - don't want to talk about it - change the subject - story trump. I don't want it fixed - I want someone to say hey - I understand what your feeling - let me take on some of the stress for you. Or to just give me a big hug and try to help get my mind off things. Chrissy just isn't that good at taking things on for me though!! Anyone want to volunteer to come take some of the at home stress over - I could use a great organizer to help me toss things and straighten up.
My thoughts are jumping all over and I don't think I'm making much sense tonight. I think I will just head to bed early and hope tomorrow is a better day.
De
I'm not sure if these feelings have anything to do with depression or if it's just normal - I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this to see if what I'm feeling is something that all people go through. I hate feeling like I'm going to burst out into tears - so I swallow it all down - bury it in the back of my mind - hope it doesn't bubble out at some inopportune moment!
People that I could talk to either want to fix it - don't want to talk about it - change the subject - story trump. I don't want it fixed - I want someone to say hey - I understand what your feeling - let me take on some of the stress for you. Or to just give me a big hug and try to help get my mind off things. Chrissy just isn't that good at taking things on for me though!! Anyone want to volunteer to come take some of the at home stress over - I could use a great organizer to help me toss things and straighten up.
My thoughts are jumping all over and I don't think I'm making much sense tonight. I think I will just head to bed early and hope tomorrow is a better day.
De
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
I'm baaaack!
I've been thinking about why I don't write much anymore - and I have come to the conclusion that it is because I started worrying about what people would think about what I wrote - what kind of comments I might get - worried that I had nothing important to say - worried I might say the wrong thing, upset someone, and then get a talking to about how I hurt someones feelings. Well - one of the reasons I started writing in here was to get over the fear of what people think about me. My thinking got in the way of my writing. No more - I am going to write about what's on my mind.
So - going forward I will write what I want and not worry what people think.
I am thinking about changing the name of my blog again - this past year has been a journey but I think that name has run it's course. The new name will reflect my life right now . . . . . . . . Living With Depression . . . . . . . . I hope to give some insight into what it's like . . . . . . . . to dispel the myth that being depressed means you sit around crying all the time . . . . . . to help get rid of the stigma of mental health disorders . . . . . . .
De
So - going forward I will write what I want and not worry what people think.
I am thinking about changing the name of my blog again - this past year has been a journey but I think that name has run it's course. The new name will reflect my life right now . . . . . . . . Living With Depression . . . . . . . . I hope to give some insight into what it's like . . . . . . . . to dispel the myth that being depressed means you sit around crying all the time . . . . . . to help get rid of the stigma of mental health disorders . . . . . . .
De
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Snow Route
Riding the bus when it's on snow route is always an experience. Not only are the schedules messed up but you get a lot of people who have never taken the bus before so they have no idea what's going on!!
Case in point - the Highlands snow route is a shuttle that takes you down to the Transit Center in issaquah and from there you have to find another bus to get you to Seattle. New riders don't understand this and they get left at the TC and have no idea what they're suppose to do. The shuttle driver this morning was so cranky and mean - he was yelling at people to just get on the bus and not explaining what was going on. I felt so bad for some of the people - I helped out though when we got to the TC and explained which busses to take to a group of people.
The other issue is that the 554 bus is always crowded and now they need to take on all of the 218 riders - no extra busses though so it is extremely crowded and at the TC nobody stands in line - they all just start pushing to get on the bus!!
The 554 bus driver is really nice and has been taking the time to answer people's questions. So now I am on the last leg of my trip to work - only been an hour so far!! Hopefully I get to work before lunch!! See - all of the busses have chains on so they can only go 30 mph!!
De
Case in point - the Highlands snow route is a shuttle that takes you down to the Transit Center in issaquah and from there you have to find another bus to get you to Seattle. New riders don't understand this and they get left at the TC and have no idea what they're suppose to do. The shuttle driver this morning was so cranky and mean - he was yelling at people to just get on the bus and not explaining what was going on. I felt so bad for some of the people - I helped out though when we got to the TC and explained which busses to take to a group of people.
The other issue is that the 554 bus is always crowded and now they need to take on all of the 218 riders - no extra busses though so it is extremely crowded and at the TC nobody stands in line - they all just start pushing to get on the bus!!
The 554 bus driver is really nice and has been taking the time to answer people's questions. So now I am on the last leg of my trip to work - only been an hour so far!! Hopefully I get to work before lunch!! See - all of the busses have chains on so they can only go 30 mph!!
De
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Oh Darn - That's The End
I can't believe the weekend is over already- it went so fast - probably because yesterday I had to wait for the Comcast guy to come fix the cable box. Then I went in to work for a few hours that turned into five hours. The cable guy actually got here at 10 o'clock like he was supposed to. And the problem did end up being my DVR box – so we had to pull out the old one put in the new one, and it all works. But of course that means I lost every show I had recorded on my DVR. Which probably isn't a bad thing - start with a clean slate and maybe not record so many shows.
Last night I left work around seven o'clock and headed home. I decided that I deserved a treat so I went to my new favorite place to eat - Five Guys Burgers and Fries. Their bacon cheeseburger is really really good - the only problem that I had last night was with my french fry order. I ordered just regular fries – I got Cajun fries. Which wouldn't have been so bad if that's what I had ordered, but it's not what I ordered - So when I took a bite it was rather spicy.
After I finished my dinner I went over to Target to pick up a few things - best laid plans - we all know what happens when you plan on only picking up a couple things in Target - you wander around for a little while you end up with a full cart. I love the beginning of the new year at Target – they have a section set up with household items like laundry detergent, shampoo, soap, etc.… I can always replenish my stock at home when I shop there. I also decided to go ahead and restock L with some of these things. She can always use more toothpaste, laundry detergent, shampoo etc. I like being a nice mom like that and getting her things when she's not expecting them.
Today I didn't go work - I slept in for a little bit and I went out to L's house to drop off all of the household items I picked up for her at Target yesterday. I decided to take her out to lunch, seems be the only way to make sure she's eating at least one good meal. I took the Red Robin – I had a salad and she had ribs with mac & cheese. Who would've thought that Red Robin could make a really good macaroni and cheese – it was really really good. after lunch we wandered around Factoria mall for a little bit way that Jesus changed. There are a lot of open parts of the mall for lease in some of the bigger stores that used to be there just aren't there anymore. We went into the Petco store, and I found some chewy bones to work with the. I got those in hopes that she would chew on those and be able to get all should stick to some was hoping that she would get older chewing out on those and that the bone would last for a while. yeah that's so did not happen, it lasted her an hour and nap bone was gone completely demolished.
Now Chrissy, the cat, and I are on the couch working on her imitation of a slug. We've really got this down!
De
Last night I left work around seven o'clock and headed home. I decided that I deserved a treat so I went to my new favorite place to eat - Five Guys Burgers and Fries. Their bacon cheeseburger is really really good - the only problem that I had last night was with my french fry order. I ordered just regular fries – I got Cajun fries. Which wouldn't have been so bad if that's what I had ordered, but it's not what I ordered - So when I took a bite it was rather spicy.
After I finished my dinner I went over to Target to pick up a few things - best laid plans - we all know what happens when you plan on only picking up a couple things in Target - you wander around for a little while you end up with a full cart. I love the beginning of the new year at Target – they have a section set up with household items like laundry detergent, shampoo, soap, etc.… I can always replenish my stock at home when I shop there. I also decided to go ahead and restock L with some of these things. She can always use more toothpaste, laundry detergent, shampoo etc. I like being a nice mom like that and getting her things when she's not expecting them.
Today I didn't go work - I slept in for a little bit and I went out to L's house to drop off all of the household items I picked up for her at Target yesterday. I decided to take her out to lunch, seems be the only way to make sure she's eating at least one good meal. I took the Red Robin – I had a salad and she had ribs with mac & cheese. Who would've thought that Red Robin could make a really good macaroni and cheese – it was really really good. after lunch we wandered around Factoria mall for a little bit way that Jesus changed. There are a lot of open parts of the mall for lease in some of the bigger stores that used to be there just aren't there anymore. We went into the Petco store, and I found some chewy bones to work with the. I got those in hopes that she would chew on those and be able to get all should stick to some was hoping that she would get older chewing out on those and that the bone would last for a while. yeah that's so did not happen, it lasted her an hour and nap bone was gone completely demolished.
Now Chrissy, the cat, and I are on the couch working on her imitation of a slug. We've really got this down!
De
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