Well, L is still upset that I made her "Panda" leave yesterday. She's not talking to me and this morning when I opened the door to her room to see if she was there she was awake and gave me the dirtiest look. Tonight I got just a few short words and that was it. She then headed out to "hang" with Blake - she just got back w/Blake in tow. He's not like the other strays she brings home - I believe he actually lives at home with his parents and I think he is still in high school.
Tomorrow starts month end close at work. Time for strict deadlines - getting in early - staying late. I can't believe tomorrow is May 1! 2008 is going by way too fast - other than the fact that L turns 18 in 10 days!
Niki and Buffy are chasing each other around the house! Niki hardly ever runs around so it is kinda funny to watch! It sounds like a heard of elephants when they come running by - I wonder what my neighbors downstairs think is going on up here!
So L just ventured out of her room - her eyes are kinda puffy and sleepy lookin - so either she's a bit high or she's been cryin' on Blake's shoulder about what a horribly mean Mom she has and how I made "Panda" leave the house and how she can't stand living here. OK - Blake just left - at least this lost soul isn't spending the night.
OK - I'm headin to bed to watch Criminal Minds and to get some sleep.
De
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Deja Vu
I think I already lived this day - and no it's not leftover drugs from yesterday although I don't remember as much about yesterday as I thought I did! I think I've been here before because when I got up this morning L's Friend Collin (aka Panda) was still here and sleeping in L's room with her - have I mentioned that he is 20. Anyways - when I got home from work today I discovered L and Collin sound asleep in her room - nope she didn't go to work - said she wasn't feeling well. Her pipe was on her dresser and she had taken apart some parts of her bed and to me it looked like she had tried to rig some kind of smoking apparatus. When she got up I asked her why Collin wasn't at his house - Oh Gee he doesn't really have a home he just bounces between friends houses and sometimes lives in his car - does he work - well yah but not this week - he is a newspaper delivery boy. OMG! Is it just me or does this sound almost like what I went through with her and Kyle just a couple months ago! I told her she needs to stop bringing the strays home and that I am not running a flop house and I can not afford to feed all her friends because even though she said she was only sharing "her" food - it's not really food she bought it was food I bought for her to eat that should have lasted a couple weeks and now is almost all gone. I told her she needed to stop worrying about her friends and start thinking about herself - It has been almost a year since she graduated High School and she needs to start figuring out what her next step is going to be - she can't spend the rest of her life working part time and partying with her friends. She told me to quit lecturing her. I stopped and took Muppet out for a quick potty break.
I am not sure if L heard anything I said or what she plans on doing. I did remind her that as of June she needs to start paying rent and that she will have to start paying for her cell phone.
I am feeling fine today - no side effects form the procedure other that a little bit of memory loss! I definitely know why they don't want you driving yourself home! I didn't think I was that out of it but I realized I don't remember much of the ride home - it's all a little fuzzy.
Bit of info - I weighed myself before Prep started on Sunday and then weighed myself yesterday morning - Prep made me lose 3 pounds! LOL! Not that it will stay off but I thought it was rather interesting!
I'm heading to bed.
De
I am not sure if L heard anything I said or what she plans on doing. I did remind her that as of June she needs to start paying rent and that she will have to start paying for her cell phone.
I am feeling fine today - no side effects form the procedure other that a little bit of memory loss! I definitely know why they don't want you driving yourself home! I didn't think I was that out of it but I realized I don't remember much of the ride home - it's all a little fuzzy.
Bit of info - I weighed myself before Prep started on Sunday and then weighed myself yesterday morning - Prep made me lose 3 pounds! LOL! Not that it will stay off but I thought it was rather interesting!
I'm heading to bed.
De
Monday, April 28, 2008
I Survived
It's over and I survived!! Everyone was right - the worst part of this whole thing is the prep the night before. Everyone at Overlake was so nice and had wonderful bedside manners. I got there at 700 - filled out paperwork and they brought me straight back to get dressed in one of those oh so beautiful gowns where if you don't tie it tight enough your butt will hang out in the back. Then it was out to a gurney bed where they fixed me up with an IV and asked me more questions about my health. My procedure was scheduled for 730 and that's the exact time they wheeled me in to the procedure room. I was given a sedative so I don't remember much after that - which I think is probably a blessing! Everything went well and I was given a perfect clean bill of health! Which is great and it also means I don't have to go have another one of these for 5 years!!
I am home now just chillin' on the couch. I got some food it my tummy - which was wonderful because I was starving!!! My friend Lyd was a God Send! She took great care of me today - we went and got an Egg McMuffin on the way home - tasted sooooo good. She then hung out with me for a bit at home to make sure I was OK. She is definitely my Best Friend!
L got home at 1130 last night with 2 friends in tow - Collin (aka Panda) and Bre - when I got up this morning they were still here and when I got back from the hospital they were still here! Not going to be a very relaxing afternoon. I did get her to take Muppet outside for me though!
Now I am going to just sit back and try to get some rest.
De
I am home now just chillin' on the couch. I got some food it my tummy - which was wonderful because I was starving!!! My friend Lyd was a God Send! She took great care of me today - we went and got an Egg McMuffin on the way home - tasted sooooo good. She then hung out with me for a bit at home to make sure I was OK. She is definitely my Best Friend!
L got home at 1130 last night with 2 friends in tow - Collin (aka Panda) and Bre - when I got up this morning they were still here and when I got back from the hospital they were still here! Not going to be a very relaxing afternoon. I did get her to take Muppet outside for me though!
Now I am going to just sit back and try to get some rest.
De
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Hopefully Not TMI
So this is my prep day for tomorrows appointment. The liquid diet hasn't been too bad - I always thought that fasting for one day would be incredibly difficult but that has been the easy part! At noon I took 4 pills and they worked about 2 hours later - I won't share all the gory details! I then crawled in to bed and took an hour nap. Now that it is 600 I am having to drink the most disgusting stuff I have ever tasted - I have to drink an 8 oz glass every fifteen minutes and it takes me about 5 - 7 minutes to choke it down. I am about to have my third glass - I hope this stuff starts working soon cuz I'm not sure I can drink much more. I have a really weak gag reflex so my body keeps trying to expel the nastiness. OK - off to have another glass! I'll check back in later.
730 pm - OMG! Everyone has said the prep part is the worse and that the actual appt tomorrow is a piece of cake. I certainly hope so! The medicine you have to drink comes with flavor packets and you can choose which flavor you want. I chose Lemon-Lime thinking it would be the most mild - I think I should have chose a stronger flavor - I didn't realize the medicine was going to have such a bitter salty taste. I don't think I'll be able to drink anything lemon-lime for a long long while. Agh - I need to go drink another glass. OH - and to top it all off L never came home from her Rave last night. I finally emailed Jenny to see if she was with her and she said nope that L was with her friend Panda and that L's phone had died last night. I guess it's a good thing I didn't count on her to be home to drive me to my appt tomorrow. Thank God for Lyd! She's going to come by at 615 tomorrow morning - take me to Overlake - wait there - and then take me home.
930 pm - OK - I have finally finished having to drink the nasty stuff - I am still having some of the fun effects from it!! Lucky me! I am going to try and get some sleep. I will be leaving at 615 tomorrow morning. L still hasn't come home. As if I don't already have enough on my mind she chooses now to pull one of her disappearing acts. I just don't have the time for this. I am sure she is with her friends having a blast and just not thinking that she should use someone elses phone to call and check in. I am a little concerned because I know that her friend Collin (aka Panda) is someone thats he met during her E binge. I think she may have fallen off the wagon yesterday - I worry that she is going in to another binge. If she has, I think she is going to have to go live somewhere else.
I am going to sign off now. I will post an update tomorrow when I get home.
De
730 pm - OMG! Everyone has said the prep part is the worse and that the actual appt tomorrow is a piece of cake. I certainly hope so! The medicine you have to drink comes with flavor packets and you can choose which flavor you want. I chose Lemon-Lime thinking it would be the most mild - I think I should have chose a stronger flavor - I didn't realize the medicine was going to have such a bitter salty taste. I don't think I'll be able to drink anything lemon-lime for a long long while. Agh - I need to go drink another glass. OH - and to top it all off L never came home from her Rave last night. I finally emailed Jenny to see if she was with her and she said nope that L was with her friend Panda and that L's phone had died last night. I guess it's a good thing I didn't count on her to be home to drive me to my appt tomorrow. Thank God for Lyd! She's going to come by at 615 tomorrow morning - take me to Overlake - wait there - and then take me home.
930 pm - OK - I have finally finished having to drink the nasty stuff - I am still having some of the fun effects from it!! Lucky me! I am going to try and get some sleep. I will be leaving at 615 tomorrow morning. L still hasn't come home. As if I don't already have enough on my mind she chooses now to pull one of her disappearing acts. I just don't have the time for this. I am sure she is with her friends having a blast and just not thinking that she should use someone elses phone to call and check in. I am a little concerned because I know that her friend Collin (aka Panda) is someone thats he met during her E binge. I think she may have fallen off the wagon yesterday - I worry that she is going in to another binge. If she has, I think she is going to have to go live somewhere else.
I am going to sign off now. I will post an update tomorrow when I get home.
De
Saturday, April 26, 2008
She Thinks I'm Stupid!!
So you know how last weekend when I got home form my parents I thought my house smelled like cigarette smoke - and we're not talking a little leftover from L coming in off the desk - and how I thought L wasn't telling me everything that had gone on. I forgot to tell you that one of our window fans was out in the living room too and L said it was because they were hot and were trying to cool the place off - I had a hard time believing that since it was snowing last weekend. I didn't press it and we went on. Well - it is kinda warm in here right now and and I went to turn that very same fan on - hmmmmm it had been reset from pulling in fresh air to being put on exhaust which pulls the air from inside the house and blows it out. So - think she was smoking cigarettes and possibly something else inside the house and was hoping that the fan would get rid of the evidence! She thinks I'm so stupid and that I wouldn't figure it out. If she were a little smarter she would have at least reset the fan!! Also, she knows I have a sensitive nose and a keen sense of smell and that I would be able to smell anything out of the ordinary. Oh - and in the garbage in the kitchen were some funny looking ashes. Hmmmm - someone cleaning out a pipe!
De
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Update - with a hidden message!!
I went to a State Gymnastics meet this morning. My cousin Christina's daughter Hailey was performing in it. We got there a little late so we only got to see her on bar. She did very good. It was good to see them - they live in Spokane - Auntie Jan was there - Mom, if you're reading this Auntie Jan is still upset that you have not come down this way to see her new house!!! I think you better make your way down here soon. L came with me but almost as soon as we got there she was wondering when we were going to head back home. I warned her that it would be a lot of sitting and that there wasn't a specific time we would be leaving. She was in a hurry to get home and change because she is headed to a Rave tonight with her friends Jenny, Vince, and "Panda". When we got home form Target she had said I would need to drive her and Jenny to the Highlands PR - so I was hanging out on the couch waiting when L's friends Jenny and Vince showed up at the house and L started to leave because Vince was driving them- so I asked her for the car keys because she had driven us back from Bellevue and I might need the car - well she couldn't remember where she put them and she started throwing things and swearing - we finally found them behind some pillows on the couch - as she was leaving she said good job not moving the pillows Mom (like it was my fault she couldn't remember where she put the keys) so I responded with How was I to know she had put them on the couch - before I could finish my sentence though she did her signature - OK stop talking OK goodbye (said really fast and in that snotty voice) and she walked out the door. It is nice and quiet here right now - which is wonderful!
Oh - if you read my previous blog - I stopped by the pharmacy on my way to the gymnastics meet and yup - they had what I needed for my prep. So please think of me tomorrow as I "prep" for Monday. It should be so much fun. I picked up some jello, Gatorade, and pop.
No big plans for the rest of today. We had such beautiful weather so I may just hang out on the deck with good book.
De
Oh - if you read my previous blog - I stopped by the pharmacy on my way to the gymnastics meet and yup - they had what I needed for my prep. So please think of me tomorrow as I "prep" for Monday. It should be so much fun. I picked up some jello, Gatorade, and pop.
No big plans for the rest of today. We had such beautiful weather so I may just hang out on the deck with good book.
De
Happy Hour
The week ended on a good note - Finance went out for Happy Hour after work! Usually I just go home but I decided to go and hang out this time. It was a lot of fun! We had drinks and snacks and just sat around and talked. I didn't get home until 900 ~ OK not that late but it was late for me on a Friday ~ We all left the restaurant at 730 - my bus was coming by at 735 - I didn't make it! I then had to wait 1/2 an hour for the next one to come by - 2nd Ave in Seattle is quite the interesting place when it starts getting later - I saw lots of just wandering the streets in packs. I just stood at my bus stop and watched a video on my iPod and hoped that the bus would just get there fast!
I spent a good part of yesterday calling between the pharmacy and my docs office because the prescription I need for the prep for Monday had not been received by the pharmacy yet. My last call to the Docs office was at 400 and I didn't get back to the pharmacy last night - so today will be interesting because if the prescription isn't there I will have to cancel my appt - I just want to get this over with so at this point I don't want to have to cancel the appt. Hopefully they called it in and it will be ready when I go by QFC this morning.
The week with L was pretty uneventful. I think the closer it gets to 18 the more she is trying to act better so she doesn't have to move out. For those of you keeping track - 14 1/2 days till she is officially 18. It's been a long road but I finally got her to adulthood!
I spent a good part of yesterday calling between the pharmacy and my docs office because the prescription I need for the prep for Monday had not been received by the pharmacy yet. My last call to the Docs office was at 400 and I didn't get back to the pharmacy last night - so today will be interesting because if the prescription isn't there I will have to cancel my appt - I just want to get this over with so at this point I don't want to have to cancel the appt. Hopefully they called it in and it will be ready when I go by QFC this morning.
The week with L was pretty uneventful. I think the closer it gets to 18 the more she is trying to act better so she doesn't have to move out. For those of you keeping track - 14 1/2 days till she is officially 18. It's been a long road but I finally got her to adulthood!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
God Speaks
God speaks and if you listen hard enough you'll hear him - It had been 5 years since I had a physical and when I called they had a cancellation for the next day - I called the gastroenterologist today to schedule a colonoscopy - fun fun - and guess what - they had a cancellation for Monday at 730. God knows that if I have time to think about these things I will back out of them and cancel the appointments - so he provided openings with no window for thinking. I am very nervous about this whole thing. Thanks alot Mom!! If it wasn't for your genes I wouldn't have to do this! Just Kiddin' - I love ya!
Day 3 of no sugar and I have made it! I went to Starbucks with my usual crew this morning and did OK - When BJ asked if I wanted to go I told him I didn't think I had enough will power to say no to a hot chocolate - he said he'd coach me through it! So - got there - waited in line - ordered a Passion Tea Lemonade with no sweetener! Yay! I made it. Certainly didn't taste as good as I know that Hot Chocolate would have. Then I just ate fruit and carrots and a lean cuisine. Yum Yum!!
Bus Story - I was late to the PR so I was pretty far back in the line so I didn't get my "usual" seat. I had to sit on the outside aisle part of a seat - which would hadn't been so bad if the person who was by the window hadn't been taking up 3/4 of the whole seat - I had to ride the whole way in to Seattle with my left butt cheek hanging off the side of the seat! Every time we went around a corner I had to dig my fingers in to the back of the seat in front of me so I wouldn't land in a heap in the aisle. Definitely not a relaxing ride to work!
Tomorrow's Friday!!!!
De
Day 3 of no sugar and I have made it! I went to Starbucks with my usual crew this morning and did OK - When BJ asked if I wanted to go I told him I didn't think I had enough will power to say no to a hot chocolate - he said he'd coach me through it! So - got there - waited in line - ordered a Passion Tea Lemonade with no sweetener! Yay! I made it. Certainly didn't taste as good as I know that Hot Chocolate would have. Then I just ate fruit and carrots and a lean cuisine. Yum Yum!!
Bus Story - I was late to the PR so I was pretty far back in the line so I didn't get my "usual" seat. I had to sit on the outside aisle part of a seat - which would hadn't been so bad if the person who was by the window hadn't been taking up 3/4 of the whole seat - I had to ride the whole way in to Seattle with my left butt cheek hanging off the side of the seat! Every time we went around a corner I had to dig my fingers in to the back of the seat in front of me so I wouldn't land in a heap in the aisle. Definitely not a relaxing ride to work!
Tomorrow's Friday!!!!
De
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Being a Girl Sucks
Let me just say that being a girl sucks! I needed to make an appt with my regular doc so I could get refills on my prescriptions - when I called yesterday they said - oh looks like you are due for a physical and we just happen to have a cancellation for Wednesday at 1030! OK Fine - I will take that appt. The appt doesn't start out very well as my blood pressure was up because i was stressed out and the first question was how long has it been since your last physical - uh . . . . hmm. . . . . . . . . . .5 years! Not a great answer. Next come the other questions about other exams girls have to do - uh nope - haven't done that either - and thanks to Mom's genetics - nope haven't done that one either. Looks like the next month is going to be spent going to doctor appts. My doc already faxed the referral form to the gastroenterologist (sp?) so I have to cal and make that appt - she's faxed the blood work request to the lab so I have to drop by there and have my blood taken. More fun than one person should be allowed to have! Now if I were a guy it would have just been the one visit and a see you next year. I swear - when I die I am coming back as a guy!
Day 2 of no sugary snacks - I am going crazy - I just want a cookie or a candy bar - what's weird is I am sure I have gone days before without having had candy - but now that I "can't" have any it's all I can think about.
Not much else to blog about today - kinda boring - kinda tired from stressing about going to the doc - I just got done watching Big Brother and the final 2 in the house are the annoying boys - blah.......I guess I will root for Ryan because Adam's buggy eyes and his lying in the house drove me crazy.
Just switched to ANTM - a few weeks ago my fav got voted out and now this week my new fav is in the bottom two - is she going home too!!! The answer is no!!!!!!! Yay - Whitney is still here and Lauren is out of here! That's great because it was so time for her to go.
OMG! Muppet has bad gas tonight! It is silent but deadly - I'm not sure I want her sleeping in my room tonight!
Day 2 of no sugary snacks - I am going crazy - I just want a cookie or a candy bar - what's weird is I am sure I have gone days before without having had candy - but now that I "can't" have any it's all I can think about.
Not much else to blog about today - kinda boring - kinda tired from stressing about going to the doc - I just got done watching Big Brother and the final 2 in the house are the annoying boys - blah.......I guess I will root for Ryan because Adam's buggy eyes and his lying in the house drove me crazy.
Just switched to ANTM - a few weeks ago my fav got voted out and now this week my new fav is in the bottom two - is she going home too!!! The answer is no!!!!!!! Yay - Whitney is still here and Lauren is out of here! That's great because it was so time for her to go.
OMG! Muppet has bad gas tonight! It is silent but deadly - I'm not sure I want her sleeping in my room tonight!
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Another Day in Paradise!
Here's the picture I said I would post! This is what I came home to find yesterday. Phone - key - cigarettes - lighter - Altoids (not!) - pipe. I say Not because I know for a fact that there was pot in the box - I found it over the weekend. Tonight L and I got in a "discussion" and I told her again that there weren't to be drugs in the house - she said i shouldn't have opened the Altoids box 'cuz i knew there weren't any in there - i told her i had discovered it over the weekend and that she was lucky i hadn't thrown it out - she then threatened to hurt me if i ever threw out her stash - i said don't bring it in the house and it won't be a problem- this went back and forth a few times and then she just moved on to another topic!
Tonight was interesting with her - we got in to a discussion regarding chores - i asked her to take out all the garbage - she wanted to know why she had to take out all the garbage because it wasn't all hers. I told her that that's what a good roommate does - helps out round the house - she came back with a oh so now I'm not your daughter I'm just a roommate - i explained it to her this way. I have spent the last 18 years trying to get her to understand that as a member of the family and living in the house you should help out. This hasn't worked out so maybe by coming at it as roommates maybe she would listen and understand. Left L speechless. So then she wanted me to help her take out the garbage - I said no because I had done my chores without help - she got really mad - and just replied with - sucks to be treated the way you treat others. All of this without getting in to a screaming match and I didn't back down. Ahh life is so much fun.
So - almost 24 hours without sugar and I am really craving a candy bar!! There's only so much fruit one person can eat! If you have any sugar-free snacking ideas please share!! Man if this is day 1 how am I going to survive the week! Aaaaghhh!! Am I crazy to try and do this cold turkey. They need to have Sugar Rehab Centers!
Giving Up Sugar
I was lazy last night so I didn't blog - I was out in the living room and my laptop was in my bedroom - I just didn't have the energy to walk the 20 or so steps to get it!! I know - how pathetic!
I have admitted to myself that I am addicted to sugar - the first step is admitting you have a problem. So yesterday was my first day trying to go cold turkey and not eat any processed sugar products. This may have contributed to my laziness. I felt good for awhile but then I just crashed energy wise. I think maybe I need to add walks in to the mix because I have heard that can give you an energy boost. Today is day 2 of the sugar detox process - i brought in strawberries, grapes, and carrots to snack on throughout the day. Hopefully this keeps the cravings for a huge chocolate bar at bay. I did have a small slip up this morning - I went to Starbucks with my usual group this morning and got my hot chocolate - which I usually get non-fat and only 2 pumps of chocolate instead of the 5 it usually comes with - but the Barista messed up my order and put all 5 pumps in and it tasted so nasty and upset my stomach really bad - so I'm not sure it can be counted as a major slip up because I don't think the sugar was in my system all that long! Eww! I have heard that sugar withdrawals can be worse than caffeine withdrawals - I hope I don't get headaches and really cranky - life should be fun and I will keep you posted!
Oh - check back tonight as I hope to blog and add a picture of something I found on a chair when I got home last night. Ooooh - are you intrigued!
De
I have admitted to myself that I am addicted to sugar - the first step is admitting you have a problem. So yesterday was my first day trying to go cold turkey and not eat any processed sugar products. This may have contributed to my laziness. I felt good for awhile but then I just crashed energy wise. I think maybe I need to add walks in to the mix because I have heard that can give you an energy boost. Today is day 2 of the sugar detox process - i brought in strawberries, grapes, and carrots to snack on throughout the day. Hopefully this keeps the cravings for a huge chocolate bar at bay. I did have a small slip up this morning - I went to Starbucks with my usual group this morning and got my hot chocolate - which I usually get non-fat and only 2 pumps of chocolate instead of the 5 it usually comes with - but the Barista messed up my order and put all 5 pumps in and it tasted so nasty and upset my stomach really bad - so I'm not sure it can be counted as a major slip up because I don't think the sugar was in my system all that long! Eww! I have heard that sugar withdrawals can be worse than caffeine withdrawals - I hope I don't get headaches and really cranky - life should be fun and I will keep you posted!
Oh - check back tonight as I hope to blog and add a picture of something I found on a chair when I got home last night. Ooooh - are you intrigued!
De
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Weekend Wrap Up
Yesterday after the snow started melting I headed on up to La Conner to visit my parents. L called me from Renton to find out when I was leaving. I figured she was just trying to find out when it would be safe to come home with friends and not have me be around. I knew there was a possibility of things going on in my house while I was gone but I can't be trapped here worrying about what might happen. So off to a fun relaxing weekend in La Conner. It had been awhile since I saw my parents. It was fun spending time with them and I got my favorite dinner - flank steak and potato salad! Yum!! It's so relaxing to be in a different place - change of scenery - an no L around making me crazy.
Got home this afternoon - a car was parked in my parking spot - walked into a house that smelled of cigarette smoke - the furniture was moved around - my clean living room had stuff all over - and the one chore I had asked her to do while I was gone had not been done. The car belonged to L's friend Jenny who had spent the night. L says that she didn't have a party - I believe she didn't have a "party" but I'm not all that sure what did go on here while I was gone. Maybe when she's thirty-something she'll fess up and tell me. She is now out with Jenny because it is "420" which I guess is like some type of holiday for "potheads". I am sure she is out getting stoned and will roll in real late tonight. She sure is lucky that they don't do random drug testing at her job. She is 18 in 20 days! The final countdown to adulthood for her. And she still has no plan or incentive to do anything other than work a job that is only 3 hours a day and party with her friends the rest of the time, My parents and I were talking about how it was when we graduated high school - back in their day you either went on to college or you joined the service - in my day I didn't think I had a choice, it was just understood that you went on to college after graduation - L just seems to think life after high school is one big party. Anysuggestions on how to motivate a young adult to start making some decisions about how she's going to live her life and what she's going to do?
De
Got home this afternoon - a car was parked in my parking spot - walked into a house that smelled of cigarette smoke - the furniture was moved around - my clean living room had stuff all over - and the one chore I had asked her to do while I was gone had not been done. The car belonged to L's friend Jenny who had spent the night. L says that she didn't have a party - I believe she didn't have a "party" but I'm not all that sure what did go on here while I was gone. Maybe when she's thirty-something she'll fess up and tell me. She is now out with Jenny because it is "420" which I guess is like some type of holiday for "potheads". I am sure she is out getting stoned and will roll in real late tonight. She sure is lucky that they don't do random drug testing at her job. She is 18 in 20 days! The final countdown to adulthood for her. And she still has no plan or incentive to do anything other than work a job that is only 3 hours a day and party with her friends the rest of the time, My parents and I were talking about how it was when we graduated high school - back in their day you either went on to college or you joined the service - in my day I didn't think I had a choice, it was just understood that you went on to college after graduation - L just seems to think life after high school is one big party. Anysuggestions on how to motivate a young adult to start making some decisions about how she's going to live her life and what she's going to do?
De
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Just One Word - Snow!!
This just looks very weird - Beautiful Spring Blossoms with snow on the ground!
Pink Blossoms covered with a layer of snow/ice crystals.
Friday, April 18, 2008
April Snow
I am driving home from work today - get up onto the plateau before L gets off work so I text her to see if she wants a ride home - trying to be a nice Mom because she hates walking - but she texts me back that she doesn't need a ride. OK - that's a little weird. So I get home and I'm hanging on the couch with the pup when I hear her running up the stairs outside. She comes hurrying in like a storm leaving a trail behind her of her purse and work clothes. She yells out I'm going to a party - changes quickly and rushes back out. I was able to get out of her that she was headed to Renton with Jenny - would probably be staying there tonight - and nope she wouldn't be heading up to La Conner with me tomorrow to see Nana and Papa. OK. Guess friends and partying are more important than seeing your grandparents that you haven't seen in 5 months. I am still heading up there - will probably be nice and relaxing.
Is it really April? I ask because I am looking out on my back deck at 2 inches of snow. That's right - SNOW!! This is friggin ridiculous - how could it be 80 degrees last weekend and now I have 2 inches of snow. I am so ready for this winter to be over with. It's supposed to be spring! Is this what they mean when they talk about global warming? OK - i just had a good laugh. The pizza guy just delivered dinner and when I opened the door he said "Merry Christmas"!! Now there's someone who can find humor in the fact that he is out driving in the snow delivering pizza's in April!!
Ooh - i did make good use of L not being in the house tonight - I was able to get the living room looking a little more livable and a little less cluttered. Just needed to move all her stuff back in to her room and WOW - the living room looked so much better. Bad thing was that when I was putting stuff in her room I discovered a small container that had marijuana in it. One of the main rules of the house is that she is not to bring drugs in to the house. I know she doesn't consider it a drug - It's a plant - but I consider it a drug as does the law - now I am in a hard spot because I don't know if I should just toss it - confront her - or tell her that she is out of the house in 22 days when she turns 18. Any comments - suggestions - would be appreciated!!
Good Luck Colleen in the Boston Marathon this weekend! Luv U!!
De
Is it really April? I ask because I am looking out on my back deck at 2 inches of snow. That's right - SNOW!! This is friggin ridiculous - how could it be 80 degrees last weekend and now I have 2 inches of snow. I am so ready for this winter to be over with. It's supposed to be spring! Is this what they mean when they talk about global warming? OK - i just had a good laugh. The pizza guy just delivered dinner and when I opened the door he said "Merry Christmas"!! Now there's someone who can find humor in the fact that he is out driving in the snow delivering pizza's in April!!
Ooh - i did make good use of L not being in the house tonight - I was able to get the living room looking a little more livable and a little less cluttered. Just needed to move all her stuff back in to her room and WOW - the living room looked so much better. Bad thing was that when I was putting stuff in her room I discovered a small container that had marijuana in it. One of the main rules of the house is that she is not to bring drugs in to the house. I know she doesn't consider it a drug - It's a plant - but I consider it a drug as does the law - now I am in a hard spot because I don't know if I should just toss it - confront her - or tell her that she is out of the house in 22 days when she turns 18. Any comments - suggestions - would be appreciated!!
Good Luck Colleen in the Boston Marathon this weekend! Luv U!!
De
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Just A Day
So I was home today from work. Woke up with one of those headaches where light hurts your eyes and makes the headache worse. I emailed work - took Muppet out to pee - went back to bed. I ended up sleeping until 230 pm. Woke up feeling better so hopefully it was one of those things that just needed my body to rest n order for it to finish fighting it off. I have been feeling like my body has been trying to come down with something for about 3 weeks now. Have you ever felt like that - it's almost like you want to tell your body -get sick already - it would probably take less time to just get sick and be done with it than to feel like you are constantly fighting it so your always just a little off.
Tonight when I took Muppet outside it was just starting to sprinkle and the air was so crisp and smelled so clean it was wonderful. I closed my eyes and just took it all in - the smell, the touch - the sounds. I wish I had a talent for writing poetry or songs - I would write about how the rain just barely touched my face it was sprinkling so lightly and how I could hear the birds chirping off in the distance and the smell of the rain was cold-clear-crisp that in my mind I was in the woods - it was all very comforting and soothing. I think I need a vacation.
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Tonight when I took Muppet outside it was just starting to sprinkle and the air was so crisp and smelled so clean it was wonderful. I closed my eyes and just took it all in - the smell, the touch - the sounds. I wish I had a talent for writing poetry or songs - I would write about how the rain just barely touched my face it was sprinkling so lightly and how I could hear the birds chirping off in the distance and the smell of the rain was cold-clear-crisp that in my mind I was in the woods - it was all very comforting and soothing. I think I need a vacation.
De
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Hostess!!
At lunch today we got on the topic of Hostess items. We got there by discussing how we thought croutons were made - stay with me here! - I said they were toasted/baked and BJ said they were fried - then he said wouldn't it be great if they were breaded and then fried! We then started talking about all the fried things that we had tasted and I asked if anyone had
ever had a fried Twinkies - which in my opinion was absolutely disgusting - and David said he thought Twinkies were disgusting anyways. Huh?!?! What?!?! Making disparaging remarks about one of the 
best snack foods ever made! How can you not like a golden cake filled with creamy insides!! I think my sister's Day Camp Aide name was Twinkie - but that's a whole nother story! Back to snack foods - I then said I liked Ho-Hos because yo
u can peel off the chocolate and eat that and then unroll the cake and eat the cream filling and last but not least eat the cake! They all just kind of looked at me weird - I don't think I have ever just eaten a Ho-Ho without peeling it apart. I do the same with Ding Dongs and Snowballs. Twinkies were hard to pull apart so I would just bite of one end, suck out the filling and then eat the leftover cake.
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ever had a fried Twinkies - which in my opinion was absolutely disgusting - and David said he thought Twinkies were disgusting anyways. Huh?!?! What?!?! Making disparaging remarks about one of the 
best snack foods ever made! How can you not like a golden cake filled with creamy insides!! I think my sister's Day Camp Aide name was Twinkie - but that's a whole nother story! Back to snack foods - I then said I liked Ho-Hos because yo
u can peel off the chocolate and eat that and then unroll the cake and eat the cream filling and last but not least eat the cake! They all just kind of looked at me weird - I don't think I have ever just eaten a Ho-Ho without peeling it apart. I do the same with Ding Dongs and Snowballs. Twinkies were hard to pull apart so I would just bite of one end, suck out the filling and then eat the leftover cake.I don't think I am the only one who does this. So - comment me and let me know how you eat your hostess or any other snack food you think of! Such as - how do you eat an Oreo? Me - twist apart - lick the creamy center - then eat the cookies!
I'm hungry now - gotta stop at the grocery store on my way home from work!
De
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Dishes and Big Brother!
I am quietly sitting on the couch trying not to make any noise - I don't want to frighten the creature in the kitchen away. What creature in the kitchen you may be asking - I can hear the sound of running water and there is the distinct smell of Ivory Dish Soap in the air. I also hear dishes moving around and what I think might be the sound of a scrub brush on those dishes. I am afraid to move and look in the kitchen because I might frighten it away!! I haven't said anything to L about the dishes - I have just left them sitting in the sink and I have washed mine. She must have finally gotten the picture that I wasn't going to do them for her. I am just sitting here in shock!! Who is in that kitchen and where did the original L go!! She must want something - I don't think she is doing this out of the goodness of her heart.
I am currently watching Big Brother! It is POV (Power of Veto) night. Laurie (from work) and I are so hoping that Natalie doesn't win POV because we want her to get voted out. She is driving us crazy!! She doesn't know that everyone in the house wants her to go so they are trying to make sure that either Ryan or Adam wins POV so that Adam gets taken off the block so they can "back door" Natalie and get her out of there. If you aren't a Big Brother watcher you probably have no idea what I am talking about! You don't know what you are missing! Think Survivor and Real World put together. Crazy Crazy!! Ooh - back on - Darn It the POV is a puzzle challenge and Natalie is pretty good at puzzles. I hoe she doesn't win. They each go separately and it is the fastest time that wins. I can't handle it!! Who's going to win!! The tension is there and my tummy feels all quivery. This is taking too long!! YAY!!!!!!!! Adam won!!!!!!!! Natalie has no idea she's going on the block!! And when she goes on the block she will still think she's safe because she thinks the other people in the house will vote Sharon out who is also on the block. Voting is tomorrow night so there is still a chance that people will change their minds but I hope not!! I want to see the look on Natalie's face when she gets blindsided and voted out. Phew! That was an exciting show - can't wait until tomorrow. It's on at 8 tomorrow if you want to watch!
Gee - L just came out of the kitchen to let me know that she had done dishes - some of the ones that had the most dried gook on them are soaking - and could I drive her to Jenny's House! Told ya she was doing it because she wanted something. Do I know my daughter or what!!
I tried a very interesting sucker today at work - it was a bacon and maple sucker. Yup - bacon and maple syrup. It tasted like breakfast! It sounded so weird and gross - tasted pretty good - just like the end of a Sunday breakfast when you take the last strip of bacon and slide it around the plate to scoop up that last little bit of syrup. Yum!!
I am currently watching Big Brother! It is POV (Power of Veto) night. Laurie (from work) and I are so hoping that Natalie doesn't win POV because we want her to get voted out. She is driving us crazy!! She doesn't know that everyone in the house wants her to go so they are trying to make sure that either Ryan or Adam wins POV so that Adam gets taken off the block so they can "back door" Natalie and get her out of there. If you aren't a Big Brother watcher you probably have no idea what I am talking about! You don't know what you are missing! Think Survivor and Real World put together. Crazy Crazy!! Ooh - back on - Darn It the POV is a puzzle challenge and Natalie is pretty good at puzzles. I hoe she doesn't win. They each go separately and it is the fastest time that wins. I can't handle it!! Who's going to win!! The tension is there and my tummy feels all quivery. This is taking too long!! YAY!!!!!!!! Adam won!!!!!!!! Natalie has no idea she's going on the block!! And when she goes on the block she will still think she's safe because she thinks the other people in the house will vote Sharon out who is also on the block. Voting is tomorrow night so there is still a chance that people will change their minds but I hope not!! I want to see the look on Natalie's face when she gets blindsided and voted out. Phew! That was an exciting show - can't wait until tomorrow. It's on at 8 tomorrow if you want to watch!
Gee - L just came out of the kitchen to let me know that she had done dishes - some of the ones that had the most dried gook on them are soaking - and could I drive her to Jenny's House! Told ya she was doing it because she wanted something. Do I know my daughter or what!!
I tried a very interesting sucker today at work - it was a bacon and maple sucker. Yup - bacon and maple syrup. It tasted like breakfast! It sounded so weird and gross - tasted pretty good - just like the end of a Sunday breakfast when you take the last strip of bacon and slide it around the plate to scoop up that last little bit of syrup. Yum!!
Monday, April 14, 2008
Rain and Taxes!
Man the weather sure can change fast here. 80 degrees Saturday - cold/rainy today. Definitely spring time in the Northwest.
Have you done your taxes yet? I just filed mine - joy-o-joy! Yup - I owed the government this year - I paid with my credit card though so I could at least get some miles for it! I would have broke even but I didn't get the Child Credit this year because L turned 17 in 2007 - Now explain this to me - The government says you are responsible for your child until they turn 18 yet you lose the Child Credit when they turn 17 - hmmm guess it's government logic - something we're not supposed to question or understand. I think I may be one of those "bitter" people that Obama commented about over the weekend! Taxes going up - gas going up - groceries going up - no relief in sight - you tell me - do we have a reason to be bitter! I think so!!
So L is still playing her game that she does when I have asked her to do something - when I got home from work I could tell she had been here - tell tell smell of something having been cooked in the mocrowave - but she was nowhere to be seen. Hmmm - no note, no text, no call. Don't know where she is or who she's with. 26 days - 5 hours - 50 minutes until she is officially 18!
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Have you done your taxes yet? I just filed mine - joy-o-joy! Yup - I owed the government this year - I paid with my credit card though so I could at least get some miles for it! I would have broke even but I didn't get the Child Credit this year because L turned 17 in 2007 - Now explain this to me - The government says you are responsible for your child until they turn 18 yet you lose the Child Credit when they turn 17 - hmmm guess it's government logic - something we're not supposed to question or understand. I think I may be one of those "bitter" people that Obama commented about over the weekend! Taxes going up - gas going up - groceries going up - no relief in sight - you tell me - do we have a reason to be bitter! I think so!!
So L is still playing her game that she does when I have asked her to do something - when I got home from work I could tell she had been here - tell tell smell of something having been cooked in the mocrowave - but she was nowhere to be seen. Hmmm - no note, no text, no call. Don't know where she is or who she's with. 26 days - 5 hours - 50 minutes until she is officially 18!
De
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Summer Like Weekend
Yesterday was such a beautiful day. I'd forgotten how much I missed the sunshine and being able to have the windows and back door open. Buffy and Niki enjoyed it too - they were both stretched out as far as they could be on the deck soaking up some rays.
I went to the QFC and saw Craig Terrill perform. He was really good in person and
extremely cute too!! He looks just like a good ol' boy! I've never stood next to a professional football player - He was very tall!! His wife was there and I also met Josh Brown's girlfriend (ex-Seahawks Kicker) as well as the wife of the bass player. They were all very nice and I may go see him again when he plays at the Triple Door on May 12. He might be playing at the winery too - so I may have to go to that one too - not that I'm a stalker or anything! Again - go to his myspace or the nearest QFC and pick up a copy of his CD.
When I got home form QFC L and I had a disagreement about her still not having done her dishes - they've been sitting in the sink for over a week after having been sitting in her room for weeks. I also asked her to clean her bathroom and clean out the cat box - she is like a Kitty Cat Slum Lord. So she did what she usually does when I have asked her to do something - she headed out with a friend and didn't bother coming home or checking in.
Today I finally got off my butt and cleaned my room!! Did laundry - folded clothes - hung clothes up - put together a new lamp - vacuumed - and put sheets on the bed. It feels more relaxed in here now.
So - 27 days until L turns 18 - it's looking like she will be staying here - paying rent starting in June. I just hope that doesn't mean she's going to be living here forever. I don't thin
k I can stand it. The only thing that she still needs to do to ensure she gets to stay is to get those nasty dishes cleaned up and the nasty bathroom. Just in case you don't understand exactly how bad it is - here are a couple of pics - now you tell me that doing chores and cleaning up after herself shouldn't be part of the rules for her staying in the house! I haven't even posted a pic of her room!
Well - time to watch Big Brother! Get some sleep and have a great week.
De
I went to the QFC and saw Craig Terrill perform. He was really good in person and
extremely cute too!! He looks just like a good ol' boy! I've never stood next to a professional football player - He was very tall!! His wife was there and I also met Josh Brown's girlfriend (ex-Seahawks Kicker) as well as the wife of the bass player. They were all very nice and I may go see him again when he plays at the Triple Door on May 12. He might be playing at the winery too - so I may have to go to that one too - not that I'm a stalker or anything! Again - go to his myspace or the nearest QFC and pick up a copy of his CD.When I got home form QFC L and I had a disagreement about her still not having done her dishes - they've been sitting in the sink for over a week after having been sitting in her room for weeks. I also asked her to clean her bathroom and clean out the cat box - she is like a Kitty Cat Slum Lord. So she did what she usually does when I have asked her to do something - she headed out with a friend and didn't bother coming home or checking in.
Today I finally got off my butt and cleaned my room!! Did laundry - folded clothes - hung clothes up - put together a new lamp - vacuumed - and put sheets on the bed. It feels more relaxed in here now.
So - 27 days until L turns 18 - it's looking like she will be staying here - paying rent starting in June. I just hope that doesn't mean she's going to be living here forever. I don't thin
k I can stand it. The only thing that she still needs to do to ensure she gets to stay is to get those nasty dishes cleaned up and the nasty bathroom. Just in case you don't understand exactly how bad it is - here are a couple of pics - now you tell me that doing chores and cleaning up after herself shouldn't be part of the rules for her staying in the house! I haven't even posted a pic of her room!Well - time to watch Big Brother! Get some sleep and have a great week.
De
Friday, April 11, 2008
Dream Chronicles 2
I've become a computer game nerd! I love Hidden Object games - Mystery Files being some of my favorites - I download my games from Big Fish Games. I downloaded Dream Chronicles 1 a long long time ago and didn't even really remember much about it until Dream Chronicles 2 was released this week. OMG - I remember loving this game! It is part hidden object and part puzzles. It is highly addictive and you just want to master it! Now I sound like a dork! Well, I got the game two days ago and I just now solved all of the puzzles and finished the game! Yup - stayed up past 11 playing a computer game! See - told ya I'd become a nerd!
If you like Hidden Object games I highly recommend going to Big Fish Games and checking them out Each game gives you the option of downloading a trial free of charge so you can see whether it is worth the price.
Time to head to bed.
Don't stay up too late playing those game.
De
If you like Hidden Object games I highly recommend going to Big Fish Games and checking them out Each game gives you the option of downloading a trial free of charge so you can see whether it is worth the price.
Time to head to bed.
Don't stay up too late playing those game.
De
Thursday, April 10, 2008
My Favorite Headphones!
I have a favorite pair Sony Headphones that I use at work so I can listen to radio stations streaming over the net. I have had them for a couple of years - they are comfortable and the cord is really long so I can move around my desk and reach my file drawer without having to take them off. Over the past few months the cord has been wearing thin and the wires have started to poke through. I did a temporary fix on them by wrapping Kleenex around them and securing them with tape. I just love them and didn't want to give them up. This week a few more thin spots have shown up and I have gotten a little shock!! Oops - Many of my finance team mates have told me I need to get a new pair! I just didn't want to give up the long cord.
Everyone will be happy to know that I believe i have found a new pair of headphones! I found them on Amazon today - they look just like my old ones and have a long cord. They should arrive on Tuesday! I will just handle them carefully until then ~ no more shocks!!
Have you ever had something that you just loved so much you didn't want to have to throw it away and get a replacement. Something to be said for comfort.
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Everyone will be happy to know that I believe i have found a new pair of headphones! I found them on Amazon today - they look just like my old ones and have a long cord. They should arrive on Tuesday! I will just handle them carefully until then ~ no more shocks!!
Have you ever had something that you just loved so much you didn't want to have to throw it away and get a replacement. Something to be said for comfort.
De
Craig Terrill
Not much to post about yesterday. Just a basic day - no excitement - no drama. Gotta love those kinds of days! I was able to just kick back last night and watch Big Brother. It went exactly how I thought it would - James finally got evicted Yeah!! - that guy was driving me crazy! Not sure I could have handled living in a house with him for two months. The HOH competition started last night and it was an endurance one. They won't show what happened and who the winner is until Sunday but I of course couldn't wait so I logged on to the blog site to see who won.
Work today should be uneventful - unless Matt and the other manager start questioning my quarter end entries today - man I hope not. I do have a meeting this morning with the SOX Auditor to go over AP Processes and Guidelines. Doesn't that sound like tons oh fun! I bet you want to trade places with me. I'm not sure anyone should be allowed to have this much fun.
Saturday I am going to the Pine Lake QFC - no not to do my grocery shopping - but to see Craig Terrill. He's not just a Seattle Seahawks player he is also a singer and will be doing an acoustic show there to kick off his CD being sold at QFC stores.
Here's a sample of what I will get to see and hear.
I'll let you know how it goes. Anyone in my area that wants to go see him with me let me know. He will be there at 11:00 am.
Gotta go back to work and prepare for the auditor!
De
Work today should be uneventful - unless Matt and the other manager start questioning my quarter end entries today - man I hope not. I do have a meeting this morning with the SOX Auditor to go over AP Processes and Guidelines. Doesn't that sound like tons oh fun! I bet you want to trade places with me. I'm not sure anyone should be allowed to have this much fun.
Saturday I am going to the Pine Lake QFC - no not to do my grocery shopping - but to see Craig Terrill. He's not just a Seattle Seahawks player he is also a singer and will be doing an acoustic show there to kick off his CD being sold at QFC stores.
Here's a sample of what I will get to see and hear.
I'll let you know how it goes. Anyone in my area that wants to go see him with me let me know. He will be there at 11:00 am.
Gotta go back to work and prepare for the auditor!
De
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Pilates - OMG!
So on Saturday I was a little bored with what was on TV and I was doing some channel surfing. In doing so I came across Fitness On Demand. This is a group of fitness "videos" TV programs available through comcast that you can watch whenever you want. I thought - hmmm - maybe I'll give this Pilate's stuff a try. Everyone is talking about it and saying how great it is. I found a 10 minute Pilate's Ab workout for beginners that sounded "easy" - I mean 10 minutes how hard could it be! Oh - how foolish I can be! It was pretty much one giant crunch for 10 minutes!! Some moving of legs and arms but pretty much a giant crunch! I made it through though and thought - well that wasn't so bad. That was until Monday morning - OMG - my tummy muscles hurt so bad!! It even hurts when I take a deep breath! Still today too! I told Matt that I will never do that again - he said as opposed to doing it again and building up my strength - well the guy has a point there - I haven't tried it again yet though - I'm afraid I may not be able to get out of bed! Maybe I should start out with something a little easier - like beginning yoga to center your chi. Yeah - that sounds better. I'll let you know how it goes. See ya On Demand!!
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Is Quarter End Over Yet?!?
Hey - got home late last night so I didn't get a chance to post - nope, not out having fun I was at work until 815 last night. Most of the work of downloading numbers last week was wrong!! One of the manager's here has changed the process of how we get to certain numbers and neglected to tell me that I needed to pull numbers from different areas and that they absolutely needed to be pulled that way on the first of the month! Yeah - nice to find out a week later. So last night was spent looking up numbers and having to do calculations to back in to what the numbers would have been on 4/1. Yeah - I was not a happy camper. I think I got the numbers pulled and calculated and they are now with manager person to look over and validate. Aagh. On the bright side - next quarter end should go better now that I know what I need to do!
The mice trick yesterday was funny! Matt walked in to his office and just started laughing. There were little mice on his desk and chair and a big mouse sitting on his computer mouse. I didn't get a chance to leave the note saying - "where's our Mama" - later in the morning he found the ones in his pen drawer! Overall - a successful prank! And now Buffy will have lots of toys because I am sure by the end of the week I will have them back to take home to her.
OK - time to get on with today's projects. Keep your fingers crossed that I am not here really late again.
De
The mice trick yesterday was funny! Matt walked in to his office and just started laughing. There were little mice on his desk and chair and a big mouse sitting on his computer mouse. I didn't get a chance to leave the note saying - "where's our Mama" - later in the morning he found the ones in his pen drawer! Overall - a successful prank! And now Buffy will have lots of toys because I am sure by the end of the week I will have them back to take home to her.
OK - time to get on with today's projects. Keep your fingers crossed that I am not here really late again.
De
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Depressed
Rave update - I was surprised - she actually was home before 100 am - she said they saw all the friends they wanted to and then they came home. Rehab Boy is back in town and she saw him at the Rave - she said they both promised each other again that they weren't going to do drugs - which remember doesn't mean marijuana to L. I found out today that L has delivered drugs for people during the past year - I asked her if she knew she could get in just as much trouble as the person selling and she said yup - that's why she will stop once she turns 18. 35 days for those of you keeping track.
I didn't do any of the things I needed to this weekend - my room is still covered in clean laundry - the dishwasher is full of clean dishes - and i have papers and crap all over the house that need to be gone through. I just have no motivation to do anything - depression is like that - I can't seem to drag myself out of this - I have been in a funk for almost a month now - I just don't know what to do. It has turned me into a big slug - i just hang on the couch - I'm not eating well - I'm not sleeping well - I need something to help snap me out of this. Today didn't help much - L wanted to drive around the Highlands and show me the big houses that are being built up there - it just ended up making me feel like crap because I know I will never be able to afford a nice house - and every time I have tried to sell this place and move it hasn't worked out. I just need something new and exciting to happen. Ugh! I can feel the urge to curl up under the blankets and hide from the world - it is an overwhelming feeling that starts in the back of your head and it would be so easy to give in to it and just not get up for anything. I have just been feeling very isolated lately - It is tough to be a single 43 yo in this world - everything is geared towards couples and guys my age are all looking for pyts (pretty young things).
OK - I need to just go to bed now.
De
I didn't do any of the things I needed to this weekend - my room is still covered in clean laundry - the dishwasher is full of clean dishes - and i have papers and crap all over the house that need to be gone through. I just have no motivation to do anything - depression is like that - I can't seem to drag myself out of this - I have been in a funk for almost a month now - I just don't know what to do. It has turned me into a big slug - i just hang on the couch - I'm not eating well - I'm not sleeping well - I need something to help snap me out of this. Today didn't help much - L wanted to drive around the Highlands and show me the big houses that are being built up there - it just ended up making me feel like crap because I know I will never be able to afford a nice house - and every time I have tried to sell this place and move it hasn't worked out. I just need something new and exciting to happen. Ugh! I can feel the urge to curl up under the blankets and hide from the world - it is an overwhelming feeling that starts in the back of your head and it would be so easy to give in to it and just not get up for anything. I have just been feeling very isolated lately - It is tough to be a single 43 yo in this world - everything is geared towards couples and guys my age are all looking for pyts (pretty young things).
OK - I need to just go to bed now.
De
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Good Grief
Saturday - day of rest and relaxation - almost! I slept in a bit but was woken up by a test message from L - she was to get a ride home form Kelly's house this morning form Kelly's boyfriend but he decided he didn't want to drive out here so I ended up having to go out to Kirkland to get her. Not exactly what I had planned on doing first thing on a Saturday morning. I got her and then of course just had to run by Target! Wouldn't be a weekend without a quick trip to Target - went in to just get Sweeney Todd DVD, some fuzzy mice, and a comb - ya right!! Ended up getting just a few more things - especially from the dollar aisle - they had made the change over from Easter and St Pat's to Spring and Mother's Day - man I Love the dollar aisle - so easy to please! After our little trip to Target L wanted to go to Ross and I needed to go to Petco to try and find a few more mice. Petco is where we got Niki so I always look at the cats they have for adoption - I wish I had a big house so I could adopt them all - there was the most adorable male Siamese cat named Cabo - then there was one that was HUGE! I thought Niki was a fat cat when we got her but this one made her look like a skinny minny! The last one was a black and white cat who had been adopted and then brought back to Petco because he didn't like loud places - why would you adopt a cat if you have a "loud" place anyways - I felt so sorry for him but just couldn't bring another cat in to the house - not enough room on my bed for anymore animals! I found the mice I was looking for - I will explain later what I needed them for! Then I met back up with L and we headed home.
L is headed out to a Rave tonight. I am very nervous about this. The last Rave she went to was what started her on the 5 day E binge. She says she is not going to do that stuff and that you can have fun at a Rave without doing drugs. It doesn't help that she just came out and mentioned that she has been getting calls from people asking her if she knows where they can get drugs - she says she doesn't sell them but she does know who they can go to - that is so very scary - I just don't understand how she became like this - I am so not in to the drugs scene - have never been in the drug scene - it just doesn't make sense to me. This Rave is being held in downtown Seattle - The only thing I really know about raves is that last year there was an after party where a bunch of people got shot - ya - not real thrilled about this little adventure of hers.
Oh - forgot to mention that when I dropped L off at the B-day party last night there was the distinct odor of marijuana in the air - and Kelly's Mom was there. I said something to L this morning about it - she had said when she go tin the car that there was no alcohol at the party - I said ya but i did smell marijuana - she said where?!? in that tone that she uses when she is surprised that I know something she thought she had put over on me - I said in the house when I dropper her off last night - she said yup that they had gotten really high - I asked what about Kelly's Mom and she then informed me that Kelly's Mom smokes it too and that she "took a few hits" with them last night. I just don't get parents that do that with their kids. L said that she and her friends don't get parents like me. Still - just don't get it.
Back to tonight's party - I just hope she stays safe - comes home in one piece - and at least checks in at some point tomorrow so I know she is OK.
Now the mice! Matt at work discovered that he had a mouse living in his car that was in the garage - he had just bought this used car so the mouse actually came with it from Bellingham. He placed traps around the car and in the garage but the mouse just ate the peanut butter the first round. Thurs he stopped on his way home and got some bigger and better traps - when he got home the peanut butter was gone form traps 1 and 2 and trap 3 was missing - he then found it under the seat - the poor little mouse had gotten his back legs trapped and had pulled himself under the seat while trying to get away - alas he did not make it. I gave Matt a hard time about not using a no kill trap and releasing the mouse back out in to the wild. So - I have now gotten a bunch of fuzzy mice and I am going to leave them around his office on Monday morning! Should be fun!!
One last gripe before I sign off for the evening - L just called because the group she is with weren't quite sure how to get to the club they are going to - so she had me Google the club name and look for directions - as I am trying to do this she gets all pissy with me and started yelling at me because I wasn't giving her the directions slow enough for them to write down - man every time I do a favor for that child she just yells at me and gets extremely pissed off. I just want her out of my house and soon. I don't want to have to live with her anymore. I want to be able to have the house to myself and to not have to smell the rotten food smell that comes out of her room. Aaaagggghhhhh! Anyone want to buy her a ticket to Tennessee so she can go live with her Dad for awhile. I want to be done.
OK - I need to go find something to help me relax - maybe a quick game of guitar hero.
De
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L is headed out to a Rave tonight. I am very nervous about this. The last Rave she went to was what started her on the 5 day E binge. She says she is not going to do that stuff and that you can have fun at a Rave without doing drugs. It doesn't help that she just came out and mentioned that she has been getting calls from people asking her if she knows where they can get drugs - she says she doesn't sell them but she does know who they can go to - that is so very scary - I just don't understand how she became like this - I am so not in to the drugs scene - have never been in the drug scene - it just doesn't make sense to me. This Rave is being held in downtown Seattle - The only thing I really know about raves is that last year there was an after party where a bunch of people got shot - ya - not real thrilled about this little adventure of hers.
Oh - forgot to mention that when I dropped L off at the B-day party last night there was the distinct odor of marijuana in the air - and Kelly's Mom was there. I said something to L this morning about it - she had said when she go tin the car that there was no alcohol at the party - I said ya but i did smell marijuana - she said where?!? in that tone that she uses when she is surprised that I know something she thought she had put over on me - I said in the house when I dropper her off last night - she said yup that they had gotten really high - I asked what about Kelly's Mom and she then informed me that Kelly's Mom smokes it too and that she "took a few hits" with them last night. I just don't get parents that do that with their kids. L said that she and her friends don't get parents like me. Still - just don't get it.
Back to tonight's party - I just hope she stays safe - comes home in one piece - and at least checks in at some point tomorrow so I know she is OK.
Now the mice! Matt at work discovered that he had a mouse living in his car that was in the garage - he had just bought this used car so the mouse actually came with it from Bellingham. He placed traps around the car and in the garage but the mouse just ate the peanut butter the first round. Thurs he stopped on his way home and got some bigger and better traps - when he got home the peanut butter was gone form traps 1 and 2 and trap 3 was missing - he then found it under the seat - the poor little mouse had gotten his back legs trapped and had pulled himself under the seat while trying to get away - alas he did not make it. I gave Matt a hard time about not using a no kill trap and releasing the mouse back out in to the wild. So - I have now gotten a bunch of fuzzy mice and I am going to leave them around his office on Monday morning! Should be fun!!
One last gripe before I sign off for the evening - L just called because the group she is with weren't quite sure how to get to the club they are going to - so she had me Google the club name and look for directions - as I am trying to do this she gets all pissy with me and started yelling at me because I wasn't giving her the directions slow enough for them to write down - man every time I do a favor for that child she just yells at me and gets extremely pissed off. I just want her out of my house and soon. I don't want to have to live with her anymore. I want to be able to have the house to myself and to not have to smell the rotten food smell that comes out of her room. Aaaagggghhhhh! Anyone want to buy her a ticket to Tennessee so she can go live with her Dad for awhile. I want to be done.
OK - I need to go find something to help me relax - maybe a quick game of guitar hero.
De
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Friday, April 4, 2008
Day 4 - Sooooo Much Better!
OMG! Laura with American Express became my best friend today!! After spending most of yesterday morning trying to get in to our AMEX accounts I thought I would get the run around again today. It started out that way - I called and got one person who passed me on to someone else - who passed me on to someone else - who transferred me again - and then the line disconnected when that person answered! Good Grief! So I called again - was told I needed to try a different number - I was thinking this was going nowhere fast. Then the most wonderful thing happened - Laura answered the phone! She was so helpful - didn't give me the runaround when I told her that the other Admin on the account was no longer with us so I didn't have any of the passwords that were needed - she said she understood and instead of resetting those passwords she would just set me up with my own login and it would all get straightened out! I think I actually heard a choir of angels singing!! She walked me through the online process and then - she asked if I wanted to get monthly reports for each of the accounts - what?!? they had actual reports and I wouldn't have to do a bunch of cutting and pasting to excel to get the information I needed - the reports can be downloaded straight into excel - now I know I heard the angels that time!! I was just giddy that this whole thing had been taken care of and resolved - I wish I had just called that magic number yesterday and avoided all the frustration and drama! I was able to get the information I needed by today and get everything completed - and - I am on track for meeting the schedule I had set up to prove that I could go to Vegas in October - nice!
Home is actually pretty relaxing tonight too - I left work at 5:30 - got home at 615 - left again at 620 to take L to Kirkland - and was back home by 715! It is so quiet and relaxing right now. Just me and my Muppet hanging out on the couch - Buffy is curled up by the fireplace and Niki is asleep in L's room - which is clean! don't fall over and watch out for those pigs flying overhead! She completed all of her laundry and actually put it away in her dresser. It is just amazing. Over a month ago I had told her that she needed to have her room clean at least a month before her 18th birthday so she could show me she can do it - that was a guideline for her being able to stay in the house - she hadn't said anything about it and then wham - she cleans the room up 36 days before her birthday (like how I slipped the count down in there!)
No plans for the weekend - I think I may try to do a little spring cleaning - the house can definitely use it.
Have a wonderful weekend!
De
PS - You have to go to kPod and listen to the Emma Kelly song. I laughed so hard this morning I though I was going to cry! There is also a video clip on Kiddlive that shows Kellie Rasberry and Emma Kelly in the studio yesterday. Enjoy!
Home is actually pretty relaxing tonight too - I left work at 5:30 - got home at 615 - left again at 620 to take L to Kirkland - and was back home by 715! It is so quiet and relaxing right now. Just me and my Muppet hanging out on the couch - Buffy is curled up by the fireplace and Niki is asleep in L's room - which is clean! don't fall over and watch out for those pigs flying overhead! She completed all of her laundry and actually put it away in her dresser. It is just amazing. Over a month ago I had told her that she needed to have her room clean at least a month before her 18th birthday so she could show me she can do it - that was a guideline for her being able to stay in the house - she hadn't said anything about it and then wham - she cleans the room up 36 days before her birthday (like how I slipped the count down in there!)
No plans for the weekend - I think I may try to do a little spring cleaning - the house can definitely use it.
Have a wonderful weekend!
De
PS - You have to go to kPod and listen to the Emma Kelly song. I laughed so hard this morning I though I was going to cry! There is also a video clip on Kiddlive that shows Kellie Rasberry and Emma Kelly in the studio yesterday. Enjoy!
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Day 3 and other stuff!
Quarter End Day 3 and so many things to write about.
Let's start with work. Got in at 700 and started on the items that were due today - one of which is down loading all the transactions on the company AMEX cards for the month of March. AMEX is used by the employees in our NY office. Issue - AMEX changed their website and I couldn't get the information I usually get - so I logged into the other area and only one of the accounts was showing up so I emailed the person in NY who set up the original accounts to get her security answer so I could add the accounts I needed - she said NO! I was like - what?!? - the information they were asking for was mother's birth date mm/dd - nothing personal like a social security number - but she said she was not going to give me that kind of personal information and I will just need to call AMEX to get myself set up as a user. Can you say B***H?! So - I called AMEX but they need you to enter account number and last 4 digits of you social security number - ya think she's going to give me that information - uh no! So I finally was able to get through and talk to someone and they said because I was not listed on the account I could not have her name removed and mine added - that an officer of the company will have to call in and make the request and then they would work on and it could take 48- 72 hours to just get me access - OK not gonna work because I have to have the March transactions in our system tomorrow!!! I spent all morning on this and got nothing resolved - i am just so frustrated - and I can't believe that the person in NY wouldn't help me out - now that's what I call a team player. Rest of the day was pretty uneventful - I got my other items completed and will just need to tackle the AMEX issue tomorrow.
Home - so L's friend in MN just got a MAC and has access to video chat - I have a MAC and I have let L use it the last couple of days when she gets home so she can Vid chat with him - problem today was that when I got home and told her I wanted my computer back she wouldn't give it to me. She kept saying I know and just a minute - so I went out and walked Muppet thinking that she would be signed off by the time I got back - nope! So I asked again for my computer - told her I wanted it back - she said OK - I went in to change out of my jeans and came back out to the family room - she was still on the computer with no intent of getting off anytime soon - because it was video chat her friend could hear us and he told her to give me back the computer - and she got all pissy and stomped back in to her room. Is it too much to ask that I have my computer to help me unwind when I get home from work? It's my computer - she has a brand new PC that I got for her when we were in TX for the holidays because she had broken the one I got her last year for Christmas. Then she yelled at me because I wouldn't go buy her cigarettes - which is an ongoing issue between us - I told her she has lots of friends that are 18 now that can go get them for her - she said she didn't have any money - hmm not gonna loan her any as I never seem to get it back - so I just told her that its a good thing she gets paid tomorrow and that didn't go over too well. Now she is in her room - door closed - on the phone. I am sure one of her friends will be coming by anytime to pick her up and she will be out of the house until some ungodly hour in the morning. I guess its a good thing she doesn't have to be at work until 300. I am supposed to be driving her to a friends house in Kirkland tomorrow for a B-day party but now I am not sure whether will do that. If she is going to treat me like crap and not be grateful for any of the stuff I do for her then I am not sure why I should do her any favors. You tell me - what would you do?
OK - so as not too spend this whole blog complaining here are some good things about today:
On a side note - for those of you from the Washington area - Kathi Goertzen - newscaster on Komo TV had to go in for surgery today for a brain tumor. This is the third time in the past 10 years that she has had to go through this. Say a little prayer for her that third times a charm. You can go here to leave her an online message. Click Here to see a video message from Kathi.
Here is a picture of my view at work - now I don't sit by the window but when I get up to stretch I go stand by the window and this is what I see when I look out. As you can see - beautiful day today. I wonder where that Ferry is going!
Let's start with work. Got in at 700 and started on the items that were due today - one of which is down loading all the transactions on the company AMEX cards for the month of March. AMEX is used by the employees in our NY office. Issue - AMEX changed their website and I couldn't get the information I usually get - so I logged into the other area and only one of the accounts was showing up so I emailed the person in NY who set up the original accounts to get her security answer so I could add the accounts I needed - she said NO! I was like - what?!? - the information they were asking for was mother's birth date mm/dd - nothing personal like a social security number - but she said she was not going to give me that kind of personal information and I will just need to call AMEX to get myself set up as a user. Can you say B***H?! So - I called AMEX but they need you to enter account number and last 4 digits of you social security number - ya think she's going to give me that information - uh no! So I finally was able to get through and talk to someone and they said because I was not listed on the account I could not have her name removed and mine added - that an officer of the company will have to call in and make the request and then they would work on and it could take 48- 72 hours to just get me access - OK not gonna work because I have to have the March transactions in our system tomorrow!!! I spent all morning on this and got nothing resolved - i am just so frustrated - and I can't believe that the person in NY wouldn't help me out - now that's what I call a team player. Rest of the day was pretty uneventful - I got my other items completed and will just need to tackle the AMEX issue tomorrow.
Home - so L's friend in MN just got a MAC and has access to video chat - I have a MAC and I have let L use it the last couple of days when she gets home so she can Vid chat with him - problem today was that when I got home and told her I wanted my computer back she wouldn't give it to me. She kept saying I know and just a minute - so I went out and walked Muppet thinking that she would be signed off by the time I got back - nope! So I asked again for my computer - told her I wanted it back - she said OK - I went in to change out of my jeans and came back out to the family room - she was still on the computer with no intent of getting off anytime soon - because it was video chat her friend could hear us and he told her to give me back the computer - and she got all pissy and stomped back in to her room. Is it too much to ask that I have my computer to help me unwind when I get home from work? It's my computer - she has a brand new PC that I got for her when we were in TX for the holidays because she had broken the one I got her last year for Christmas. Then she yelled at me because I wouldn't go buy her cigarettes - which is an ongoing issue between us - I told her she has lots of friends that are 18 now that can go get them for her - she said she didn't have any money - hmm not gonna loan her any as I never seem to get it back - so I just told her that its a good thing she gets paid tomorrow and that didn't go over too well. Now she is in her room - door closed - on the phone. I am sure one of her friends will be coming by anytime to pick her up and she will be out of the house until some ungodly hour in the morning. I guess its a good thing she doesn't have to be at work until 300. I am supposed to be driving her to a friends house in Kirkland tomorrow for a B-day party but now I am not sure whether will do that. If she is going to treat me like crap and not be grateful for any of the stuff I do for her then I am not sure why I should do her any favors. You tell me - what would you do?
OK - so as not too spend this whole blog complaining here are some good things about today:
- The weather was finally spring like today. Sunny, warm, and beautiful.
- April - gal at work - turned 30 today so we had a pizza lunch and a gelato cake - yumm!!!
- A new episode of Survivor is on tonight!
- Kellie Rasberry's daughter was in the studio today and they had her talking on the kPod and it made me laugh!! Her daughter Emma Kelly is a year and a half - sooo cute!
- Today is over so that means tomorrow is Friday!
On a side note - for those of you from the Washington area - Kathi Goertzen - newscaster on Komo TV had to go in for surgery today for a brain tumor. This is the third time in the past 10 years that she has had to go through this. Say a little prayer for her that third times a charm. You can go here to leave her an online message. Click Here to see a video message from Kathi.
Here is a picture of my view at work - now I don't sit by the window but when I get up to stretch I go stand by the window and this is what I see when I look out. As you can see - beautiful day today. I wonder where that Ferry is going!
Here is another view from the window. That ship in the distance is a freighter. I wonder if it is picking up or dropping off.
And here is the final picture. This is looking down The small building in the middle is Westlake Center.
Now when I am talking about work you can picture where I am! I have posted pics fof my messy desk and the view! :P
Yay - tomorrow is Friday and then the weekend! Have a good one.
De
And here is the final picture. This is looking down The small building in the middle is Westlake Center.Now when I am talking about work you can picture where I am! I have posted pics fof my messy desk and the view! :P
Yay - tomorrow is Friday and then the weekend! Have a good one.
De
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Quarter End - Day 2
Another day down and I have survived! It was another early morning - got in at 700 - I really enjoy the office that early- no one is around, the fluorescent lights aren't all bright, and it is quiet. I can get a lot done in those couple hours before everyone starts arriving. I am on schedule with my quarter end items which is good. It will be another early day tomorrow.
I was able to leave work at 400 tonight though - I had an appointment back in Issaquah. OK - it was a hair appointment. I needed it though - bad hair days make it hard for me to concentrate!
L has been doing so so - Sunday she came home stoned. I asked her if she was drunk and she said - NO I would never come home drunk - I asked if she was high and she said yep. She just doesn't believe that marijuana is a drug. I am not sure what to do about that. Other than that issue things have been going OK - no huge arguments and she actually started doing some of her laundry!!
Time to get some rest so I am rejuvenated for tomorrow.
De
I was able to leave work at 400 tonight though - I had an appointment back in Issaquah. OK - it was a hair appointment. I needed it though - bad hair days make it hard for me to concentrate!
L has been doing so so - Sunday she came home stoned. I asked her if she was drunk and she said - NO I would never come home drunk - I asked if she was high and she said yep. She just doesn't believe that marijuana is a drug. I am not sure what to do about that. Other than that issue things have been going OK - no huge arguments and she actually started doing some of her laundry!!
Time to get some rest so I am rejuvenated for tomorrow.
De
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Quarter End - Day 1
Quarter End Hell starts for me this morning! I got in at 645 this morning - yup you read that correctly 645 am!! I'm usually not even ready to leave at that time! I do my best work in the morning though so it is better for me to get in early than to stay really late. Although, today I may be doing both. All depends on how long it takes me to download information from our Google, MSN, Looksmart, accounts. I am hoping to show that I can do it in a short amount of time so that maybe my boss will let me have some time off in October. I have a chance to go to Vegas but it is also the end of Q3 - I figure if I show I can get my jobs done in good time and that I won't be missed they will let me go. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
OK - time to get this party started.
Have a great day!
De
OK - time to get this party started.
Have a great day!
De
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