PA-THE-TIC

The title says it all! The Apple Cup was just horrible! I have been a true die hard Cougar Fan for 27 years! I think this year has been the hardest one to date. I wore my Crimson and Grey every Friday to work and every Saturday for game day - Muppet wore her Jersey religiously - we cheered them on and talked trash to our opponents! But . . . . alas . . . . . the football team just didn't carry their end of the deal. This season was bad - bad - bad - and ended just as it started - Pathetic!!

I am still a die hard fan though - you will hear me saying things like "Just wait till next year" - "We are in a building period" - "The program will be great next year with all the Freshman we have on the team" "Basketball Season is next and we'll kick your a**"

This Apple Cup has cost me some $$$! I owe TM - be prepared to get the bank back you sent last year! DB - $5! BM - $5! NP - Friday Starbucks! and last nut not least - AP - Dessert of her choice which I am making right now!

On a cheerier note - My Fantasy Team seems to be doing well. I am down 9 pts right now but my opponent has no players yet to play and my QB Drew Brees plays tomorrow night. Barring something horrible happening I should take this game. I have no chance to make it to the playoffs but I can shake things up by beating certain people!

I did some chores today - laundry, organizing, kitchen. Still needs a lot more work but I will get it done before Dallas. I have decided to turn my "coat closet" into a pantry - thanks for the idea mom! I just need to pick up some wire shelves from Home Depot and take my electric drill out of storage!

OK - I need to go finish the dessert! Then try to get some sleep - the ringing in the ear is quite loud tonight for some reason.

De

**18 days until Dallas!!**

Hi All!

Good Morning! Have we all recovered from our Thanksgiving Dinners! Yesterday we went and saw the movie The Blind Side! It was so good! I had heard good things about it and usually when I hear a lot of hype about a movie it doesn't stand up when I go see it - this one did and even surpassed my expectations! It's even more incredible because it is based on a true story. I could def see it again.

I'm still at Mom and Dad's house - stayed over again last night. Got home from the movie - had our Turkey Sandwich Dinner - watched some TV. I will probably head home around noon or so - get home in time to watch the Apple Cup!! Go Cougs!!!

No other plans - just some chores this weekend and watching football. I have a lot of boxes in my dining room that need to go to storage - I think I am going to move those to the spare bedroom which will get them out of the way and help me to get the actual living area clean and tidy. Then I can bring one box back out at a time to go through and take to storage. I so need to hire someone to drag all this stuff to storage for me! That is one of the things I hate about being on the third floor. Hauling groceries is one of the others.

Muppet has had fun up here this weekend - being able to just run out the front or back door to go outside. She is going to love being down in Texas and having a fenced in backyard. One of these days I will move and get her a backyard.

OK - gonna go in search of some toast or something for breakfast. I already had 2 Mincemeat Tarts but should probably have something a little more substantial.

De

**19.5 Days until Dallas!!**

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving!

Got up this morning - took a shower - packed - headed on up to Mom and Dad's! My Mom makes the best Thanksgiving meal. I love the Turkey, stuffing (outside of the bird), potatoes, and cranberries!! Then I love the Turkey sandwiches the day after. They have to be made on soft white bread with lots of mayo! Then you put turkey on one half and stuffing on the other - then smoosh them together! The cranberries are on the side but you dip the sandwich in the juice. Yummy!!

Mup and I are staying overnight up here. Don't want to drive home in a Turkey fog!! Tomorrow we are going to go see the movie The Blind Side. I've heard good things about it.

Muppet isn't a big fan of staying overnight! Right now she is finding it hard to get comfortable on the bed - probably because it's a twin bed so she doesn't have as much room. She also had an accident earlier today - peed on Nana's carpet!! She hasn't done that in a long time!! Luckily I caught it soon enough so it came up pretty quick. Told her she better not do it again or else she'll be regulated to the kitchen and the bathroom and nowhere else.

The ride up here was long. I can usually get up here in about an hour and a half. Today it took 3 hours!! I was expecting a little traffic but not this bad. The slow down started at Everett - Marine View Drive exit - and went all the way up past the Outlet Mall and Casino!! About a mile after the mall I saw why we were so backed up. There was an accident involving a semi! It was pretty torn apart - the semi was only there so I'm not sure if there were any other cars involved. After the accident traffic picked up.

I talked to L a couple times today. She is very lonely and going stir crazy - it's like being put in an isolation cell. Next week at this time she will be on a train headed back to Washington. The MN Experiment was a bust. I am pretty sure I'm not getting the whole story about what's been going on back there. This was T's last facebook update -

Just loves how some people seem to make me out as the bad guy... If someone is to concentrated on getting laid and fucked up all the time it's not my place to be near them... I gave that up to live a productive life rather than sit by and watch time slip away until I couldn't find myself...

Well - she will be back in WA in a week. We shall see what happens. It does seem like a lot of the old crowd she hung out with are growing up and moving on. T is looking for a job, K has past the written exam for the Guard and is going in to take her physical, J has a job-went to school-and is living on her own independently. I just hope L makes a turn soon.

De

***21 Days until Dallas!!!***

FML

This headache has made my brain very fuzzy feeling. I keep thinking that I have forgotten something - I hate that feeling. I found miniature composition notebooks at Fred Meyer this weekend and grabbed a few - one at work, one at home, one in my purse - to try and jot things down so that I don't forget. I taped a note inside my car again reminding me to return my movies to the Redbox at Fred Meyer.

Saturday I went and saw New Moon - Loved It!!!! So much better than Twilight. This is one that I will definitely want to own and watch over and over. I left the theater wanting to read the books over again just so that the story wouldn't end and I could stay in that fantasy world.

L called me this weekend. T's Mom - who lives with her boyfriend - informed L that Thanksgiving is only for family and that she was not invited to dinner at the boyfriends house. How can someone be so heartless!! Isn't Thanksgiving a time of helping others and being with people whether they are "family" or not! I just couldn't believe it. T's Mom also took them out to do some grocery shopping - I had sent a $25 visa gift card to L for food - T's Mom then told L and T that they were not allowed to share food and that the food she bought is only for T! WTH!!! I understand she doesn't want to "support" L - but isn't this going a little overboard.

So I am saying that the MN experiment has not been successful. L says she has been talking to her Dad regarding what she should do next. Her friend Eric in Bellevue says she can stay with him and look for work in Bellevue. L looked up prices for train tickets from MN to Seattle. Her Dad said he would try and help her out. But of course - since her made the offer and she has tried to call him to say that yes - she wants to get a train ticket and come home - he is no longer answering his phone for her or returning her calls. He called her today to say he saw she had called - he was at work - and would call her on his way home from work. Never happened. You know - child support is no longer being garnished from his paychecks so he has an additional $250 a month - he could certainly use some of that to help his daughter out. Boggles the mind doesn't it.

I Won My Fantasy Football Game on Sunday!!!! Beat the Yuck Monkey's Team (Owned by TM). He was 7-3 going into yesterday's game and I was 2-8. Just a preview of how Saturday's Apple Cup will go!! Go Cougs!!

Time to head to bed. Gotta get up early tomorrow so I can get to work early so I can leave early for my Dr Appt. Lets hope that they can figure something out tomorrow. Spent most of today with the headache along with noises and eye movement making me feel like I was going to throw up. Fun Fun Fun! Jealous yet!!

FML

De

You Have Reached . . . .

In order to keep all parties as private as possible I will be using initials for all!

Got a call today - not the morning one from L - the afternoon one from T's Mom! Wanted to talk to me about L. Seems L had not really told me the all the facts about her move to MN - and it seems she has been pulling the wool over T's Mom's eyes as well. T's Mom had said L could live in the house with T as she had to pay the mortgage anyways - but if it sells they are out. She had not told L that they would feed her - she needed to contribute/buy her own food. T's Mom could not believe that I would send L out to MN with only $20 - Said "I am not going to support your daughter!" I told her that I had sent L with $100 so not exactly sure what happened to that - must not have been spent on food. She went on and on - making me feel like I was the one mooching off her and asking her to raise my child. Oh - did I mention that this call came while I was at work - not exactly the place to have a heart to heart with someone - it was 5 her time but only 3 mine! The way the call ended was T's Mom telling me that if things don't get better I better plan on buying her a ticket to come home. Oh - and she also said that T had complained to her about L - saying she was mooching off his stuff - exactly what did he think was going to happen - he asks L to come live with him knowing that she is poor and has no job! After this call I of course called L - she had no idea what T's Mom was talking about - everything was going fine. I also forgot to mention that in the conversation with T's Mom she mentioned how L doesn't shower or brush her teeth and that her teeth look like she's done nothing but eat sugar - made me feel like it was my fault. Umm........the girl is 19 1/2 not 5 - I can't make her do anything. I told C about this over IM and she gave me a good line to use if the call comes again . . . Here's L's Dads number . . . Call him. Kinda like that line from a Travis Tritt song . . . . . .Here's a quarter call someone who cares!

I have written before about how I was receiving calls from collection agencies for L. Well, today I got the strangest message . . . and it wasn't for L it was for my former brother-in-law C and his wife G. The message was "Hi D, this is A from ***** Company. I am trying to reach C and G. Can you please pass this number along to them and let them know I need a call." Then he left a 1-800 number. How weird is that!! I changed back to my maiden name well before I moved to my current place with my current phone number - the last name was never associated with either place. How was this person able to locate me and put me together with C & G but not able to find their current phone number. When did I become the go to person for these types of calls.

Health wise I am doing a little better. The new med I am on seems to be helping a little - I get between 1 - 3 hours in the morning headache free!! It starts to creep back in and by evening it is making itself known. The ringing in my ear had calmed down to just an annoying high pitched buzz - but it is back in full force tonight - don't know if this is stress related or just the symptoms shifting around a bit. New symptom - slight bloody nose when I blow it. I'm not blowing that hard - not sure if this might be a side effect form the new meds or not - I will add it to my list of questions for the Doc on Tuesday. Oh - and my memory seems to be going a bit. I wrote a grocery list this morning and knew I would probably forget about it so I taped it to my steering wheel when I parked at the park and ride. When I got to my car tonight I looked int he window and my first thought was - Who's leaving me notes and how did they get in to my car - the door was locked.! Then I remember it was my list! It was a good thing I taped it there because I had totally forgotten that I needed to run by Pet Pros to get Puppy Pads and Dog food.! Muppet would not have been a happy camper tomorrow morning if I had forgotten to pick these things up.

OK - I'm going to try and tune out the ear symphony and get some sleep.

De

Please Hire L

This blog was originally started as a way for me to vent about living with an 18 year old. The first month I started writing I used L's name in the posts - I eventually shortened it to just L so that some anonymity could be kept. A few months ago I did a Google search on L's name and one of my blog posts came up. I went back into the blog and removed her full name and replaced it with L. I figured it wouldn't fair to her if someone googled her name and what came up was my rantings as a frustrated Mom. Well - what they say about things on the Internet never really going away are true! If her name is googled it will pull up a post from two years ago even though I removed the name - it was "cached" - so it still brings up a link to that old post.

Well - someone in MN googled her name yesterday and went to the old post and then also looked through posts from this month and last. I am thinking it may be a potential employer - as I know they use Google these days.

I hope that whoever reads my posts that they take what I say about L with a grain of salt. My frustrations should not have any bearing on whether you hire her or not. She is a good young lady and is very serious about finding a job and doing well at it.

I spoke with her today and the homesickness and stress she was having yesterday has passed. She was very excited about some job opportunities she had found and applied for.

Please Hire L.

De

The Results Are In

MRI Results are in . . . . . . nothing abnormal showed up in my brain /head or sinuses. On one hand this is good news . . . nothing serious is wrong. On the other hand this is bad news . . . no idea what's going on inside my head that is giving me these headaches and ringing in the ears. Very very frustrating.

Then . . . to top it all off . . . L has called me 4 times today crying about how she hates MN . . . . it's not like how she thought it was going to be. It's boring - her back hurts - she wants to come back to WA - there's no food in the house so she's starving. This is how I addressed each of these issues:

• Find a job so you have a reason to get up each day and you have something to do and it won't be boring.
• Take some Advil and apply heat for her back pain. If it hurts that frickin bad then have Talon take her to a Doc in The Box to have it looked at - she's on my insurance until the end of the year.
• I'm not buying another airplane ticket. She needs to start earning and saving money to find her own way back. Told her she can call her Dad and go to TN.
• I sent out a box today with some Mac & Cheese and granola bars. Isn't this something she should have discussed with Talon before deciding to move to MN. I also gave her some cash when she flew out last Sunday - what did she spend that money on?

I said - "You always do this - make a snap decision to do something without really looking in to all the details. You never look any farther then the present - never planning for the future. Now you are going to have to figure this out on your own. I am not buying another airline ticket - and if you do come back to WA you are not living with me."

Sounds like a fun day doesn't it! Good thing I had a Lisa appointment today so I had someone to talk to about all this - otherwise I would be going even more nutso than I already am. I was able to tell her some things that I have been feeling without having to worry about her reaction. She is just there to listen and not judge the dark thoughts that have gone through my head over these past few weeks. It felt good to voice them and get them out of my head.

Now I am going to go take a Vicodin and make this headache go away. I will start on the migraine meds tomorrow night.

De

32 Days until Dallas!

Forever

Well - yesterday I should have gotten my MRI results - I called the Dr around 230 to see if she had gotten them only to find out that . . . . Yes, the results were in! But . . . . . . . .my Dr was at a certification class so I won't be able to talk to her until Monday!! I swear - this whole process has taken sooooooo long! I just want to know what is causing this and get it fixed. Major headache tonight - just took a Vicodin so hopefully I can get some sleep.

It's hard to believe that L has been in MN for only a week. It seems like forever ago that I took her to the airport. I have heard form her a couple of times. I think she is doing ok - spent this past week getting settled in - hopefully she will start looking for work and get a job soon.

OK - short blog - I am finding it really hard to concentrate right now - I need to just turn off the lights and close my eyes - hope for the pain to subside.

De

MRI

The day finally arrived - Insurance finally said OK - appointment was made and kept. Check in time was 330 - had to fill out lots of paperwork - mostly question about whether I had an metal in me - wouldn't want little pieces to get sucked out of your body by the giant magnet! After the paperwork was done I sat in the waiting room for about 10 - 15 min. I was then brought back to a room to put my belongings and change into a scrub top - I was able to keep my jeans on which was good because I forgot my sweats at home and didn't have time to run in to Target to buy a cheap pair. They then came to get me!

In the MRI room I laid down on a table that was about the size of a bench - they put cushions under your legs and neck to make you comfortable - as comfortable as you can get on a skinny bench like table! The next step was to have an IV tube put in to my arm - this was in order to inject me with a contrasting dye for the last part of the MRI. I was given a panic ball I could push if I started to get stressed and headphones playing music I had chosen - I went with 80's! Then a plastic looking frame was placed over my head - it was just a frame so I could still see out of it. Then it was time to start - the table moved back into the MRI machine. At this point - my advice to anyone having this done would be to keep your eyes closed and don't even peek - I peeked! It is a very small chamber - if you are even the slightest bit claustrophobic you will not be comfortable. I am and thought I was going to go into pure panic mode. I closed my eyes and just tried to lose myself in the music. The MRI machine makes some very loud thumping , clicking, whirring noises. The first part of the test lasted about 30 min. The tech then came back in and moved the table out a bit so she could inject me with the dye. At this point - Do Not Peek!! I did again - they don't pull you all the way out so your head is still in the machine - very tight space. The second part of the test was only 15 minutes - more thumping, banging, and clanging. Then it's over! Change back into your regular clothes and head on out. I decided that after this ordeal I needed to treat myself! I went to Target and bought myself the new Bon Jovi CD.

Now it's just a waiting game. They said my Dr should have the results tomorrow afternoon. If I don't hear from her by around 3 or 330 I will give her a call.

I am torn between wanting them to find something so that I can hopefully get it cured and the ringing, pain, dizziness will go away and wanting there to be nothing wrong. But if they don't find anything then how will they make this go away.

OK - I'm going to sleep. I have tomorrow off - going to try and get my house organized a bit.

De

Yes Virginia . . . .

It is starting to look like the holidays in downtown – the store window displays have mannequins in mittens, scarves, holiday dresses, ornaments hanging from the ceiling. They have started putting the lights up in the trees along the streets. Santa’s House has gone up outside Nordstrom’s. This morning as I was driving in to work I pulled up next to a Metro bus and saw out of the corner of my eye what looked like Santa. Wow – even Metro is getting in to the holiday spirit. I turned my head to read what is said – The picture was of Santa on top of a roof next to the chimney and it read Yes Virginia, . . . . . There is no GOD! In the corner was a logo which read Seattle Atheists’ Group.


WTH!!!! What is it about these people that they feel the need to come out and be unpleasant during the holiday season. Last year it was posting a sign next to the Christmas Tree and the Menorah at the State Capitol Building. (See Picture) They don’t post signs or pay for bus advertising during any other part of the year.



I’m all for freedom of speech and the Seattle Atheists’’ right to post whatever they want. You know darn well that if another group wanted to buy bus advertising that read – Illegal Immigrants Should Be Sent Packing, or if the KKK wanted to advertise their group by showing a black man hanging from a tree – There is no way that King County Metro would allow it. I’m not saying that these other signs should be posted – I just believe that there would be a double standard towards who would be allowed to buy advertising spots.


When this group was asked about this bus campaign they responded by stating they just wanted to get the word out to people who may not believe in God that there is a group of likeminded people they can get together with. If that is their purpose then why don’t they buy advertisements during any other time of year?


It just frustrates me that these types come out of the woodwork during a time when we should be showing goodwill toward our neighbors and friends. Isn’t that just a human belief and not just a Christian belief – The Freedom From Religion Foundation (Seattle Atheists’) says they want to live in a world where they don’t have to be around religion. Do the Atheists’ not believe in tolerance of others beliefs and/or celebrations?


The money that they spent on this advertising campaign certainly could have been put to better use such as helping out the homeless – How about an Atheist Soup Kitchen for those people who need help but are not religious. My friend Kevin called Metro to find out how much an advertising campaign would cost - Exterior ads range from $450 to $600 per bus per 4 weeks. Interiors start at about $15. So if they put their signs on 20 buses to run through Christmas (8 weeks) the cost would be $18K to $24K. Certainly could help out a lot of people and get the word out about their group to other likeminded people in a positive way.



Thoughts?


De

She's in MN Now

Sunday morning I woke up around 500 to the sound of L throwing up. She was really sick. She went back to bed hoping she would feel better after a few hours of sleep. She got up at 800 to get ready to go catch her plane - got sick while she was doing her hair. We talked about whether she should get on the plane. She called Talon and he told her to see how she does on the car ride to the airport. So - we headed on out to SeaTac. When we got there she thought she was going to hurl again. We decided she could change her plans to Monday or Tuesday. When she went to call Talon she said her stomach wasn't hurting anymore - I said "Hmm, once it was decided you weren't going today you felt better" Yup. Talon told her to get on the plane. Nerves and eating a bunch of crap with Kellie the night before had gotten to her. We got her checked through - I gave her some money to get water or juice once she made it through security. We hugged good-bye. I watched her go through security - went to some windows and watched her take the escalators down to catch the tram. When I got home I tracked her flights to MN. She got there safe and sound! I spoke to her on the phone today - she sounded so happy and I could hear her laughing - haven't heard that in a long time.

Some people have asked me why she went to live with Talon in MN instead of her Dad in TN. Well . . . . her Dad never returned either of our calls! I called him twice and L called him multiple times through out the week. What Dad wouldn't call to talk to his daughter after learning that her boyfriend was abusive? What Dad wouldn't want to try and help her get away from him? I just don't get it.

It was hard to see her leave not knowing when I would see her again. I can't just go and take her to lunch to make sure she eats at least one healthy meal. I Love her very much. I believe that this is going to be good for both of us. Help me to let her go and not be her rescuer - Help her to stand on her own feet. I am hoping and praying that L comes out of this stronger and better.

De

For Those Who Like Drama . . . . . .

Went to bed last night not knowing where L was and not able to reach her on her phone - just rang 7 times and then to voicemail - which meant the phone was on - she just wasn't answering or couldn't answer.

Friday Progression of Events -

1:30 am - woke up - checked my phone - no missed calls or texts

5:30 am - woke-up - no word from L. Got ready for work

6:30 am - I logged on to her cell account to make sure she had minutes and to see if she had made any calls. 270 minutes - no activity since 10 Wed night.

7:30 am - got to work. Did some more investigating - took down phone numbers she had called and numbers that had called the house.

8:00 am - called Talon to see if he had heard from her. Called and left messages on the phone numbers she had called last and most.

8:30 am - Still no activity on her cell phone - I have now entered panic mode - I just had a bad feeling in my stomach. I called Overlake Hospital to see if they had admitted her - nope. Asked if they had any Jane Does - Due To The HIPA Laws they couldn't tell me that - they can only release that information to family or the police. Not sure how they know who family is if it's a Jane Doe!!

9:00 am - Complete melt down at work. Called 911 to report her as missing. Spoke with the Issaquah police giving them a description of her - including her Tattoos. I left to go home. Couldn't hold it together at work anymore.

9:45 am - Got home - looked up some more phone numbers. Per Officer H suggestion I called Harborview to see if they had admitted her. Nope. Which I guess is good news. Pulled up the latest picture I had of her - figured out how to work my printer and printed out pictures of her and pictures of her Tattoos.

10:30 am - Spoke to the Officer again and gave him additional information. Gave them Justin's name and number. He is a person of interest seeing as what went on last weekend.

10:52 am - Received a call from L! Said she had her phone on silent and that's why she never picked up. I was so glad she was safe!

11:00 am - Called Office H to let him know I had heard from her. He said he was going to call her just so he knew she was safe.

11:15 am - L called me and was very upset that I had called the police. Justin had called her because he received a call from the Issaquah Police looking for her and he didn't like feeling like he was a suspect. How could I call the cops! How could I give them Justin's name and number! Told me I should have listened to Talon when he told me she would be fine. I told her that I was thinking that until I saw that she hadn't used her phone - which is permanently attached to her ear.

11:30 am - Let Putbory know that everything was fine so she could pass it on to people at work. Took some deep breaths. Tried not to feel stupid. I'm so ready for her to go to MN - I need a break from these dramatic episodes.

2:00 pm - Fell asleep - a much needed 2 hour nap.

5:30 pm - 12 hours after this day started Spoke with L. I will be heading out to pick her up from her friends apt soon.

1.5 Days until the flight to MN leaves.

De

Deja Vu

Hmm . . . . this post may be a little Deja Vu! Here I sit at 8:00 at night not knowing where L is. She left with some friends last night saying that she would be back today . . . have not seen or heard from her since. I have tried calling her - phone rings and rings and then goes to voicemail - so her phone is on and working she's just not answering it. I find myself getting worries - stressed out - imagining all sorts of horrible things that could have happened. I'm sure she's just hanging out and not even thinking about the fact I might be worrying about her. These past few days I had kind of gotten lulled back into a feeling of - things have gotten better - but after today I remember once again why she needs to be somewhere else and not my responsibility. Can't take the stress.

Her ticket has been purchased for MN - she is scheduled to fly out on Sunday. Hopefully she shows back up before then because she still needs to pack and haul whatever she's not taking with her to storage - I told her yesterday that anything she leaves inside the house is going to either be donated or tossed. The Condo is not going to be her storage unit.

It is only 8 and I am exhausted. I've taken a Vicodin to try and help me sleep tonight - the ringing has gotten louder throughout the day.

Here's hoping that tomorrow brings better things.

De

Headache Update

Called the Benefits Advocate this morning - she says she called me yesterday and that the number was out of service - ummmm . . . - I don't think so - my cell was in service all day. And . . . if it was out of service that one try - why didn't she try calling me again a little later. Anyways - the CT Scan was denied because the case notes didn't show a month long treatment with a Dr and/or a month long medication treatment. So - I called my Dr and made an appointment for this afternoon.

My appt with the Dr went fairly well - no I'm not cured - but she is going to resend all the case notes including today's visit - which brings it up to about a month - and give the insurance company a call to see what more needs to be done. I got a new prescription for Vicodin to help me at night - get a little too loopy when I take it at work :-P. So - for now it's just take the Vicodin at night to help sleep and drown out the ringing. Wait and see what the insurance company says after they get the additional case notes and the Dr calls them. Keep the fingers crossed.

De

Crackers In Bed

It's been a busy busy night. Took L over to Justin's to pick up all her "crap" - his words not mine. We got there and before L even had a chance to knock on the door he was already bringing her stuff down the stairs and loading it in the car. She does have a lot of stuff!! Especially considering what was in her car when it got stolen almost a year ago. After the last box/bag was loaded in the car they both went back upstairs. She wasn't up there as long as I thought she was going to be. When she got back in the car she was crying.

He didn't want her to move to another state. Why couldn't she just move in with Micah - he's the guy that she was supposedly sitting too close to on Saturday which made Justin mad. He then told L that he hated how things had gotten but she had brought it on herself!! What an ass!! Let's not take any responsibility for his part in all this! He sure knows how to make L feel like crap. Good Riddance To Bad Rubbish!

Now I am home - sitting on my bed - watching NCIS -Best Show On TV! - Having a dinner of cheese and crackers. L is dragging the many bins of stuff to her room so she can go through them - toss what she doesn't need/want - box up and move to storage items she wants to save - pack what she needs to take with her. It is looking like she will be heading to MN to live with Talon. She has been talking to him and his Mom all day. Plans should be firmed up tomorrow.

Nobody wants to talk to me! Alan has not returned my calls from yesterday regarding L - The Benefits Advocate has not returned my call regarding why the insurance denied the CT Scan - No call back from the Dr office.

OK - gotta sweep the crumbs outta my bed and go to sleep to the wonderful musical stylings of the Ear Ringers!

De

I Am Screaming On The Inside

I am at home sitting on my couch and not enjoying the peace and quiet I usually get to come home too. L is in the spare room talking on the phone as loud as ever - that girl can just not talk in a quiet voice. I left a message for Alan this morning and I just tried calling him again - no luck. L has now decided she wants to move to Minneapolis and live with her friend Talon. I told her to get the plans set and as long as that is what she really wants to do I will get her a one-way ticket there.

Additional stress - my Insurance Company has denied the CT Scans that my Dr ordered. Now I don't know what to do. It's not like the headache has magically gone away - the ringing hasn't suddenly gotten quiet - it's all still here. What am I supposed to do? I left a message with my regular Dr and also a message with the Benefits Advocate. Neither of which called me back today.

So - now I am just sitting on my couch - not having my peace and quiet - listening to the ringing and deciding whether to take a Vocodin tonight for the pain.

Anyone want to trade!!

De

Good Grief

Good grief - Not sure where to start. I had lunch with L yesterday and we hung out at the mall for a bit. During lunch she told me that Justin's Mom was definitely moving out and that she needed to find another place to live. She asked me to think about letting her move back in - I told her I felt she needed to look at other options - she is still out of work - has no car - and I just don't know if she has made any changes in her attitude/behavior. I dropped her back off at the apartment and headed home.

My headache seems to be OK in the morning and then gets worse throughout the day - by the time it was 830 it was pounding and the ringing in my ears was very loud. I decided to take a Vicodin and get some sleep. Well - that sleep was interrupted at 300 in the morning by a call from L. She was crying and said that Justin had spit on her - hit her in the stomach - hit her in the face and knocked her to the sidewalk. She wanted me to come pick her up. Now 2 things were keeping me from just saying OK and heading out there - 1. Considering the conversation we had earlier I wasn't sure if I believed her - she might be saying this just to get me to let her in the house and then I will never get her back out. 2. I had taken a Vicodin and was not really feeling up to driving. She said that her Dad had told her she could come live with him and that she wanted to do that but just needed somewhere to go tonight. I finally went and picked her up. On the way back to the house she kept talking about going to her Dad's - that she had no friends here - I agreed that she needed to make a new start somewhere.

Sunday is now almost over and she has not made any plans with her Dad. She says she called him and that hew was online playing a game and told her he would call her back - I asked her a few hours later and she said that she had chatted online with him and that he was sitting down to dinner and would call her later - a couple hours later I asked her to call him - she dialed a number and said he wasn't answering. Part of me is wondering whether she is pulling the wool over my eyes and that she never even talked to her Dad about going down there. I am going to call him tomorrow and talk with him - I just don't trust her.

She is still here and tomorrow I am actually going to leave her in the house while I am at work. This is just not what I need right now - my headache issues and this week is month-end. I did tell her that tomorrow she needs to clean the house while I am at work. 2 months of headache is kinda showing in my housework - kinda cluttered!!

We'll see how it goes. I have told her that staying here is not a long term solution. I think that Tennessee is the best solution - new place - fresh start - no one knows her there so she can start over. Most of her friends have stopped talking to her - which makes me think there is a lot more going on here than I know.

I am now heading to bed - no drugs tonight - gotta get up early tomorrow for Month End fun!

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