Downward

(Post from last night . . . Blogger wasn't working!)

I am getting too old for this . . . . . . . stayed up until midnight last night reading Mockingjay - the final book in the Hunger Games Trilogy.  The book was intense, emotional, and I couldn't put it down - I just had to finish it.  I'm paying for it today though - so so tired!  Not just the kind of tired where you yawn and want to sleep - it's the kind of tired that turns your brain to mush and makes you feel like you're forgetting something.  I've been like this all day - just can't shake it - so I will be hitting the sack at a more decent hour tonight - like as soon as I finish writing!


Even before staying up way too late last night I had been feeling out of sorts.  I couldn't figure it out - I had a good staycation - felt rejuvenated after the week off - but since then I just can't shake this weird feeling.  I think I may have figured it out - I don't do real well with change and there have been a few changes in the past couple of weeks.  It just disrupts the routine and throws me off balance.  I am hoping that my emotions settle down in the next few weeks so I can get back on track - don't want to ride the emotional roller coaster downwards too far - tends to get me in trouble.


De

Fullfilling Sunday

No tears tonight - could be because I read for a bit and then I've just had Law & Order reruns on the TV.  It's been a good day - sunshine - a cool breeze coming through the windows.  Of course that means I didn't get anything done around the house! : P  I tell ya - I need someone to just come in and do this for me - I need someone that can de-clutter - organize - haul crap down to the dumpster/recycling.  I'm not lazy - I have all goo intentions of getting things done - I just get overwhelmed when I see everything - I just don't know where to start.    OK - just saw a preview for The Messiest House 5 - my house doesn't look as bad as that so I guess it could always be worse!

Miss Chrissy and her favorite toy!

Chrissy has been carrying around her squirrel toy all day.  I opened the screen door when I got home so the cats and Chrissy could go out.  I did a few things and when I looked outside Chrissy had set Squirrelly out on the deck by her little pee patch of grass - which by the way she still hasn't figured out how to use!  I just now looked over at her and she was sound asleep in her little bed on the couch and she had placed squirrelly in bed with her!  She can be so cute sometimes!  I rarely get a good picture of her because she jolts awake at the slightest movement - luckily my phone was right next to me!  Isn't she cute!!

So I already watched the season premiere of True Blood.  Next up is the season premiere of Leverage - with my sweetie Christian Kane!  Also the Series Finale of Law and Order CI - that is sad because I really liked that show - at least they brought back Goran and Eames to finish it out.  I have both set to record on the DVR - luckily I was able to watch True Blood East Coast Time otherwise I would have had to make a tough decision as they are all on at the same time on the West Coast.


Sacrament Meeting, Sunday School, and RS were all good today.  In every single one there was a message that I felt was for me.  It's amazing when that happens.  You get answers to your questions in small ways - someone that you don't know in your ward gives a talk and part of their message is an answer for you.  In Sunday school the topic continues with that same topic and then it carries over into RS.  I find it amazing when I here something that I have been searching for!

OK - tomorrow is another work day.  Time to hit the hay.

De

Ask And You Shall Receive

God must have decided that last night wasn't a good enough cry - I just got done watching The Time Travellers Wife and even though I had read the book and knew what was going to happen I cried and cried and cried!  Now the movie Dear John is on and I can already tell I'm gonna be crying - it is based on a Nicholas Sparks book after all.  Hopefully I will be all cried out by the time this one is over. 

De

A Good Cry

Have you ever needed a good cry - just to clear out the emotions building up inside - and you can't just sit down and cry.  Well I needed that - although I wasn't aware of it.  I was channel flipping and came across a movie on Showtime that I had kinda wanted to see - even though I knew it would be cheesy - It was a basic rom-com (romantic comedy) and I knew exactly how it was going to end . . . .  I decided to watch it . . . . . . . . . . . . Letters To Juliet.   It was good - I got a good cry!    Has anyone else seen this?

Now I am going to get back to reading - Catching Fire - book two of The Hunger Games Trilogy.  Very Good!!  I seem to be good at getting into a series of books after all of them had been published!  I don't think I could have waited for the next one to come out!  It's a young adult series so it reads rather quickly - which is good!  I hope to get book two finished and book three started this weekend.  I know . . . I lead such an exciting life!!


De

Done

Day is done

Gone The Sun

From The Hills, 

From The Lake,

From The Skies.

All is Well

Safely Rest

God is Nigh.

It is Bedtime - Vacation is over - I gotta get my butt out of bed and go to work tomorrow - how very, very sad.  It's like the last day of camp. 

Trying to think of positives here -

• I will get back on a regular schedule 
• I will have other people to talk to - not just the silly dog
• I will get back on my meds - which is the one negative about vacation - I get off schedule and forget to take my meds. 
• The weather will get nicer because I don't have any plans to hang around outside

 Only 5 positives!!  How depressing!! Or that may just be the non-meds talking! : P

De

Staycation!

Well - the plan was to write every day and let you know how my staycation was going but I was having too much fun doing absolutely nothing!!  Well - almost nothing.

Sunday - Family Day!  I spent thew afternoon up in La Conner visiting Mom and Dad - hanging on the patio - having BBQ Burgers and Potato Salad for dinner.  It was lots of fun.  I think Chrissy liked being out on the patio - she was on a leash but still had lots of room to run around.

Monday - Chore Day!  Kinda needed to plan for more than one day for this.  I didn't realize how much crap my closet could hold - and I've been shoving boxes, files, stacks . . . in there for 16 years!  I finally got everything pulled out of there and even pulled the bins out from under my bed.  I think I sorted through everything - now I just need to shred the confidential papers, carry out the other papers to recycling, and straighten up and store the papers that I need to keep . . anyone know how long you need to keep your Tax Returns?  I have so many other chores that needed to be done - need to rearrange my schedule!

Tuesday - Errands Day!  I went to Half Price Bookstore and sold 3 grocery bags of books.  I think the economy has hit them too - I didn't get as much money as I usually do.  I did get enough for movie day though - I think.  While they were going through my books I hung out at the Starbucks and read on my Kindle.  Then I went and got L so she could cash her unemployment check - then we went to Target and then to her house.  Then I went to QFC to get a few groceries and then I went home. 

Wednesday - The original plan was for this to be Lunch with a Friend Day - plans got cancelled though so it became Pajama Day! It was just me, the cats, and Chrissy hanging out on the bed all day.  Hadn't had a lazy day without guilt in a long time!  I did leave the house once - didn't change outta the jammies though!  I went to L's work - went through the drive-thru to give her some Tylenol - picked up some lunch for myself - went back home!

Thursday - Entertainment Day.  It was Three Movies and a Dinner Day!  I started out seeing Super 8  - the new movie by JJ Abrahms and Steven Spielberg.  When a movie gets lots of hype I am usually disappointed - not this time!  It was really good and entertaining!  The actor that plays Charlie in the movie actually live sup here on the Plateau and goes to BLMS!  You wouldn't recognize him though on the streets because he had to gain 50 pounds for the role and he has lost that weight and gone through a growth spurt.  Ohh to be a kid again and not have to worry about trying to lose weight!!   The next movie was Hangover Part II - it wasn't bad - not as good as the first one though.  The last movie was Bridesmaids!  This one was funny!  I had heard it was a Hangover for chicks - not really.  It was better - not as vulgar - and very funny!  I also have a new actor crush - The guy who played Officer Rhodes - Chris O'Dowd!  He's cute and has the best accent!  I looked him up on IMDB to see if I had missed him in other movies - looks like he has mostly done work in England.  After the movies I went to Red Robin for dinner - I couldn't believe how crowded it was!  Then I remembered it was the last day of school - lots of kids out celebrating the beginning of summer vacation.  Luckily there was room up in the bar area so I didn't have to wait for a seat.  Then it got even better when the bill came - This was my tenth meal since joining the Red Robin Rewards Club so the burger was free!! Nice!

Friday - No plan day!  No other name. I took Chrissy for a walk - took recycling down to the bins - played computer games.  At least I got out of my pajamas!   

Now it is the weekend and I have Monday off also - there's just something about coming back from a vacation on a Monday that just seems wrong!  So - three days left - a few more chores to get done - a Ward BBQ tomorrow night.  I could get used to this life of no work!

De

Woops!

Thank God I am here sitting comfortably on my couch and not in a hospital somewhere.  I took a fall down the last four stairs in the Bus Tunnel this evening on my way home!  Those stairs are marble and the floor was very hard.  I miscalculated where the last step was and - boom - down I went.  It was all in slow motion though - I thought I caught my balance but nope - landed in a heap at the bottom of the stairs.  And at the height of rush hour and many many people trying to catch the train or their bus there were lots of witnesses to this fall - many walked around me or just stared at me - one person helped me up and asked me if I was OK.  I appreciated her help.

Now what have I learned from this -

1. The majority of people in Seattle aren't very  helpful and/or willing to help out a stranger.
2. Marble steps are very slippery
3. Walking down stairs and reading at the same time isn't very smart!

De

Same Old Same Old

Note to Weather God:

Make up your mind!  It's very hard to know what to wear when the temperature changes so drastically form day to day!  Yesterday was a capri day and today was jeans and jacket day!  Last night was a keep the fan going in the bedroom night and tonight is a snuggle under several blankets to stay warm night!   

I need some new simple ideas for dinners - I'm getting bored with what I have in my repertoire of recipes.  Lately I have been having cereal for dinner which - although very easy - is not very healthy.  Any suggestions you might want to share would be great! 

3 Days until staycation!! 

De

Sun

The last few days have been full of sunshine - I didn't realize how much I missed that golden ball in the sky!  Saturday I sat on the deck and read - Chrissy perched on my lap the whole time!  I finished the book The Peach Keeper - it was a good read and quick.  Now I have moved on to the book The Hunger Games - I had heard good things about this book and I know they are planning on making a movie based on the book too - it is a trilogy. 

One day down - four to go - then I have a week off!  It's been 6 months since I took more than a couple days off in a row.  I hope this sunny weather holds out. 

My brain is really fuzzy right now - I think I need to get a good night sleep.  So off to bed.

D

Which Way Do I Go

Well - all I can say is that yesterday was very very interesting! 

My family used to tease me and say that if they dropped me in the middle of Seattle I wouldn't be able to find my way home! How about not being able to get to a place you drive to every day!  Yup - got a little lost going to work yesterday - so so sad.  I took the James street exit like I usually do - get on to James and in the far right lane so I can turn on 4th.  My problems started when I moved to get around a big truck and wasn't able to get back in to the lane - no one would let me in - so I couldn't turn onto 4th.  I thought - no problem I'll just go around the block and get back onto 4th from another street.  Great plan right!  Would have been but when I got part way around the block I didn't recognize any of the streets and somehow found myself on the other side of I5 right by Harborview Hospital!  Thank goodness for my Garmin - it got me back on track - not before I had been driving around for 15 minutes which caused me to miss Early Bird Parking which meant I had to pay $27 to park instead of $12!!  A $15 mistake!

Then - after work I took L grocery shopping then drove her home.  Backed into her driveway to make it easier to unload her groceries.  This driveway is a small version of Mom and Dad's Mirrormont driveway - very steep - so getting out of it requires a balance between brakes and gas.  My first try didn't go so well - the car never moved - nope, not because I had the E-Brake on!!  It was because I had not taken it out of park and put it in to drive! 

I'm telling you - I need to just stay put - not go anywhere!  At least it is sunny outside today so I can just hang out at home - do some reading outside.

De

It's Thursday!

Today felt so much like Wednesday that I felt giddy when I got home and remembered that it is Thursday and the week is almost over!  Yay!!  And . . . . . . . . . it is supposed to be in the 70s this weekend!!

I met the new Missionary in our ward - he and Elder Graham were walking along the sidewalk when I took Chrissy out for a walk when I got home.  Elder Bowen is his name and he seems nice - he's from New York.  They told me that Elder Tinge got moved to his previous ward in Federal Way.  Hopefully that means that eventually he will come back here.

Right now Chrissy and I are just hanging on the couch - I'm trying to get sleepy and she is just waiting for me to go to bed - squirrely right by her so she can grab it and run to the bedroom as soon as I turn off the TV.  

De

Bite Your Tongue

The voices in my head have been getting very loud - fighting to get out and make some noise.  I have been struggling to keep them silent and in my head but it is getting rather crowded in there.  So I need to let a few of them out - 

"People - it's only water"
"Hellooooo - Free Right Turn"
" Uh - that would be why I gave it to you"
"Make up your mind people"
"Oh Yeah! Well, your dog looks like scrub brush!"
"I wouldn't have asked for a straw if you had put one in the bag"

OK - I've made a little bit of room - should be able to keep the voices quiet for a few more days!

De